I lost my partner of 30 years on June 10, of Pancreatic Cancer. My life was forever changed on that day as yours was on June 2. It has been a very difficult journey since that day, one that will take much longer before I am able to feel whole again - if that is indeed possible. I feel your pain and hope that you are surrounded by loving friends and family as I am. They have made it possible for me to progress as far as I have. Know that there are many people on this website that are in the same state of mourning as we are and many of them will invariably reach out to you in their own ways and times to offer you comfort. I wish you well. Please feel free to send me a message if you need to talk.