Dear Sabrina ...  I am so very sorry for your loss and you've come to a wonderful forum, one where members like angels will gather around you and guide you because we've been where you are (new members ARE where you are in raw grief) and those of us such as myself who have had 6 years of missing their beloved spouse 'pay it forward.'  That means when I joined Legacy 6 years ago Chicago Beard was the first person to answer me and I got to know others on Legacy that could understand just how I felt.  We're here for you hon so please keep posting. 

Grief is part of life, but all of us will agree an ugly part of life.  It feels as if when our beloved on left this world they took part of our soul with them.  We can feel extremely alone, not know who to talk to or who will understand our pain, cry all the time, sleep a lot or have insomnia, aches and pains, etc.  It's a huge trauma to lose the one you loved and love never wanes.  What you are going through is normal and NO YOU ARE NOT GOING CRAZY!  Please keep posting hon and just speak from your heart because we're here to help you through it.

Big hugs

Marsha