Certain things... events, smells, songs make us think of them!! After some time, Sandra, you will appreciate those things differently. I still miss my son so very much, but after 4 years and some months, I can talk about his life and smile. I still cry and wish it wasn't so.I guess we will always cry, but I am grateful for the 23 years that I had with him and impact that he had on, not only my life , but the lives of others. I will pray for you now that you will have peace. I don't know your loss, but I cannot imagine life without my wonderful husband. I am sorry for you.   Diane