Shannon, yesterday was the best day I've had since 1/8/12. Tomorrow marks two months of unyielding grief. I have had to go through so much in these nearly two months. This may seem strange, but if you ever need someone to talk to, would you be open to me sending my phone number. Sometimes it is just nice to talk to someone that really understands and you can hear a kind voice. I started to send my number, but I don't want to interrupt your privacy. I've got tons of family, but some of the older ones have different perspectives on death. Yesterday, I found out a client of mine has been through this, and she suggested I try talking to someone closer to my age. She is in her sixties. I hope I'm not overreaching. The Internet can be scary.
Shannon, I was curious about grieving groups for teens. It is so difficult for them, because they hide so much, and they don't want to be part of a group unless it is their idea. I see that you are from Dearborn Heights, and I noticed that Hope Lutheran Church in Dearborn has a group that meets for teens. I think there is a griefshare group too, but not sure where it is. I had a friend who lost her daughter to cancer. They got counseling for the older daughter (11), but I think it was a one on one, and she didn't want to talk about her issues. Now, as an adult, she is very angry with her parents, and doesn't talk to them. I checked out the loss of a parent group here, and it looks like they are adults. I know we are a wide variety of ages here, but when you are a teenager, it can make a big difference. Let your son know you love him. Talk with him about his father, and let him tell you things. It will be hard for you, but hopefully it will be worth it. My husband's scent is circling around me right now, so I think he is telling me that what I am saying is good. hugs.
Shannon, I'm so glad you are friends with me. I'm just learning to navigate this site. We're nonjudgmental because right now we've received just about all the judgment we can handle with the loss of our dear loved ones. There is not a moment of any day that I don't feel the weight of the loss of Lawrence. Men like Lawrence and your husband don't just drop our of the sky, they are God's gifts to us. I thank you so much for friending me. It's one of the nicest things that has happened to me since Lawrence left me. I feel in many ways we are kindred spirits. Blessings, my dear friend, that today's load will be a little lighter.
I want to tell my sister in law about this site so she can feel like she has some support as well. She is in really bad shape as well. It is scarring me about some of the things that she has said recently. She feels as if she cannot go on often. Every day is a struggle. To be able to converse on here with others who know her pain and are living in it, may help. All we can do is pray for those who are suffering so much, that GOD will give some comfort.
I feel your pain as well. My beloved brother took his life on October 07, 2010. His wife of 27 years still cries every day. I have horrible dreams so often. Suffering of this kind is some thing that is very hard to endure.