Tammy... reading your words I feel like I am typing them.... you say the exact things my mind thinks and feel the exact way.   God in heaven be with us. 

Shannon

Tammi I am so glad you found someone you an trust that can help you communicate with your daughter, I have been reading john edwards books and although the one i am reading now is teaching to be a psyhic which i have no deseire to be or think i could be one, everytime i read one of his books i get something of jonathan, I didn'tknow my son smoked but i was reading his book last night a i smelt cigarette me or my husband dosn't smoke so i knew it had to be him I wasn't happy it was cigarette smoke but he really never wore any special cologne just what ever he could take from his brother or father he just wans;t into that kind of thing  His phone sent us a little snowman last night this is the first text i have gotten from him nothing else but a snowman it was suppose to snow in texas but it really didn't so i have no clue what he was trying to tell us, it's the first time he sent multiple text it was to everyone in our family the same thing the snowman, and what was really strang is the sim card that is in the phone i am using for his phone now doesn't even have the applicaton on it, just another way for them to let us know they are near. I pray that with the help of this person and your daugter you can find the killer.  We haven't had anyone come forward to let us know what really happened rumors are that the other man when in jonathan's lane to pass a car and jonathan went into his lane to avoid a headone but the other driver ot back into his lane andjonathan never did, now the man is sueing for alot of money and won't be contact our insurance company until they see the toxicology report, i want to know the truth if my son did something stupid and went into the other lane so be it he was only 17 and had only been driing for 6 months but i know there are witnesses but none want to get involved with a 17 year old getting killed.

thank you Tammy I told my husband and he took it good he said he didn't feel him though, I told him he has to look for signs, like this morning after i got off this ite the first email was from some company called penny auctions, well thats my penny from him today and it made my day. I can't wait to hear more maybe you can tell me what you do im reading john edwards books about contacting the afterlife I can't live in this life without signs from him and with you seeing and talking to your daughter you have given me hope that i can do the same wwith my son. Have a good day, my youngest daughter is getting a tattoo in memorial of her brother i am going up there to see it

Tammy:  Thank you so much I asked Jonathan to let me know if it was really him last night or was I dreaming after you wrote me and went to ask you to be my friend and the advertisement on the right was for camo koozies its what his sister and i 2 days ago spent 5 hours figuring out who to go with we are having his 18th memorial birthday party feb 9th and we ordered camo koozies, so that was my confimation that i did see him last night, and you helped I would love to hear about some of your experiences you said you have had, sometimes i feel him so near and sometimes its like i can't feel him at all.

Tammy:  Thank you so much I asked Jonathan to let me know if it was really him last night or was I dreaming after you wrote me and went to ask you to be my friend and the advertisement on the right was for camo koozies its what his sister and i 2 days ago spent 5 hours figuring out who to go with we are having his 18th memorial birthday party feb 9th and we ordered camo koozies, so that was my confimation that i did see him last night, and you helped I would love to hear about some of your experiences you said you have had, sometimes i feel him so near and sometimes its like i can't feel him at all.

I understand and I feel the same. I will never be all right again ... never.

Tammy, my thoughts, and prayers are with you, please know there are people who care, we all share a common pain, and your right i feel as though i have been torn in two also...today would have been my son Robby's 25th birthday, he letft us lasst august 19th, and the pain is still like it was the moment he passed..take care, and god bless you...Tammy E

Tammy I am so so very sorry for the loss of your baby Ashleigh. I know what you are going though . I lost my baby Gregory in Dec of 2009 and I know my life will never be the same . I miss my son so much Not a minute of my waking hours do I not think of him and what could have been .The Holidays were really hard he loved that time of year . He passed on Dec 2 and for a week after the mail man was delivering a new game every day it breaks my heart to know he will never get to play those games .. You are in my prayers as i hope I am in your's
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Pam

Tammy- Ijust wanted you to know I still pray for you daily. I know how hard this week is for me so I know it is unbearable for you. Wish I was close enough to give you a hug. May you be able to face this time with peace, even if you are crying.