I have just read your post and I think I'm here for you.
Your and my pain are exact. Were are traveling the same road and mile markers.
My brother, my exact twin, suffering in a way that led up to his death and of all days "July, 19th 2009".
Tomorrow, I drive to Washington to bring his headstone to Sacramento and I wont be back till Sunday, but I'm here to listen. I know your pain. What other people don't get I do. Your hurting.
If you respond, I'm here unconditionally to listen and not judge. If you don't reply I understand and wish to leave you with one song to listen to from a Group called "Civil Twilight" the song is "Human"