Hope you made it thourgh the holidays.My son and his family came down and stayed til sunday, he brought videos he had found of my husband from last christmas they were wonderful,but also sad at the same time so we both had a good cry. I will go to his house for New Years,then I will be glad that the holidays are over and I have got through them. I still cry every day of course not as much, and I am learning to do more and more on my own,hope you are too. Hard to believe it has been 6 months!!

I hope things are going good for you , I had to put up my christmas tree for my little granddaughter who will be coming to visit this week and on christmas eve. I shed a few tears last night christmas was Dans favorite holiday and christmas eve will be 6 months without him. I hope you will be with family even though that can never take the place of your husband, I just want this first holiday over with it is so hard to even think what to get anyone all I want is my old life back.

well i am glad to hear that i could help. i am actually sad today. i have been trying to keep busy, but at some point we are forced to stop and think. and once again i found solitude in your words, so thanks again.

Thanks for you comment. I try not to push myself but it seems if I keep busy I won't think about the pain. But I will not do that again since it got me sick. It just that I have been looking around for a nice headstone for my husband and pricing them as well. I thought it would be easy but my emotion caught up with me again. Everything seems so final once it is in place and since I going to rest on top of him when my time comes,,, it feels like my life is over. I know he would want me to go on since I'm only 45. But I can't stop thinking of him and missing him. My heart ache for him, every day, hour, minute and second. Everyone says in time things will get easy but I don't feel that way. I know it has only been a month and I should give it time but it's hard. Thanks for your prayers and warm thoughts. I will pray for you also.
Thanks again, Eileen

Thank you so much for responding.I have family, I have friends, but I do not have Doris.We all say it, but she was the most beautiful, sweetest person I ever knew.We had such a loving 23 years.I watched her go down all this year and we could do nothing to stop it.She went into the hospital in Houston and was there 31 days before the end.Im not lonely for other people Im just so lonely for Doris.Not long ago she just gave me a card, It said. The day I met you was the luckiest day of my life, Love you always Doris.My how I miss that lady.

Thankyou so much. It is sad to know that someone else, such as yourself, is going through the struggle of losing a loved one, but in turn, can help another remember they are not alone. Some moments are harder to get through then others, but you have offered the best advice, which is what i have been sticking too. grieve when i need too, and when ready, move onto the next page. it is hard to leave someone behind, but unfortunatlly we have to continue on. it is frustrating when you have so many unanswered questions, and yet you are suppose to continue on. when someone comes to you as you did me, it gives you the strength to continue on, and that i thank you for. hang in there, and take care.

Hello Wendela
I found it thanks!
I posted it on the general site and it came back to me later on an e-mail.
Thanks for your time
God Bless you
Margret