My heart breaks for you too. I can't believe how many mothers and fathers and families are affected by this horrible tragedy. I will pray for you too. I am so numb pray and God seem far away. I am so sad that Michael did not find someone to love him and have a family with, and then maybe that would be too hard too. I always dreamed of what his family would be like, a dream now that will never come true. I read somewhere in the Bible that God collects all our tears. Sometimes I am numb and other times just a small object of his will crumble me.