God bless you for your comment that suicide is forgiveable, my husband commited suicide 9 months ago and I truly want him to be with the Lord, you did love the Lord but i guess things were just to much for him, my heart aches each and every day for him
I think that is a lot of the difficulty....there are not a lot of good times upon which to remember. That's what being a product of a dysfunctional family will do to you then...as a child growing-up, and now, as an adult coping for the loss of a parent they loved, but also for the good times and relationship you never had. Something, someone, or some drama was always front and center. It's been a difficult year, but one, as a counselor myself, anticipated, but just not at this magnitude of hurt and despair.
Thanks for caring....no one else does any more...they have all "Moved-on!"....I hate that phrase!