Hi Alaine,
Thanks for the nice note. It really means a lot. I read something recently in one of "healing" books. The quote was I am ready to step back into the stream of life. I really liked that because it was sort of giving me permission to move forward. We will always have our memories and our special feelings about Michael and Peter and no one can take those away from us. But we need to go on, we have to but I think we'll be strengthened by the love we had with them. We were so lucky to have known them and loved them and also be loved by them. Not everyone is as lucky as were to have that special kind of love. Unfortunately ours ended way too soon but we still had it for awhile. I think in our darkest moments we need to remember that and just thank God for giving us that love. Well Alaine, I hope you are feeling better physically and healing emotionally as well. I will keep in touch especially these next few weeks. I realize they will be tough for you but just remember, you are not alone. I pray for better days for both of us. Take care of yourself and I'll talk to you soon.
Diane

Hi Alaine,
Its good to hear from you. Sorry to hear about your stress test but hopefully these things can be taken care of. Better you find out through a stress test and then go on the proper medication. So good luck with your health issues but I do understand what you're saying. Maybe in some way, Michael guided you toward having this test done because he wants you to be all right. I hope things are getting easier for you. I know its almost a year for you and what a year its been, right? Thats how I feel about the past year. With God's grace we'll get through it and maybe we'll help other people who are hurting because we know how bad it can get. Our lives will never be the same but hopefully someday we'll feel happiness again. I'm sure we will. We have to believe that. Well Alaine, you take care of yourself and please keep in touch and let me know how you are doing because I care. Diane

Hi alaine,
Hope your days are a little better.
My name is Brandy I live in Hellertown Pa. so we are not that far away,I lost my husband (Richard) 2/13/10,& it is so new ,I feel lost & unknown where I belong or way I'm alone,we had a very close marriage of35yrs.& the last 20yrs. it's been24/7
We both got injuried at work ,so we were on workers compstion,he was hurt in 1987& I in 1993,I have medical consurns,he did every thing ,house work & out side what he was able .
We have one son,who is a great help.
I still have alot of griving but everone says it will get easier,I hope.
keep in touch,& I will be thinking of you.
Walk in love & peace

Hi Alaine,
How are you doing? I see you have an anniversary coming up. I will be thinking of you and praying for you. I really hope something good happens for you that day. I have been doing ok. I have been so busy with everything. Sometimes I ask myself if I'm running myself ragged just to cover up the pain? This time of year brings back a lot of pain because it was this time last year that everything was starting to go bad. I can't help but think back about what was going on at this time last year. I still miss him terribly but I am able to get through the day. At night, it is terrible to climb into bed alone and know he's never going to be next to me again. I cry when I'm alone in bed because I miss him so much. I hope someday it will get easier. Right now, he's still a part of me and I know he's still with me in some way. That gives me comfort. So thats where I am at right now. You take care of yourself and keep in touch.... Diane

Yes, I was hoping to find something that might help Clayton and Kelly both. It's been 3 months now since the accident and it's still very fresh in everyone's mind. Clayton is really doing remarkably well, though. He's had a couple meltdowns, but overall is doing good. He's actually doing extremely well in school and had his best report card ever in March. We expected just the opposite. Baseball season has started and it's been a little tough on him since that's what he and his Dad shared the biggest interest in. Terry's been a great support for him through all of this, though. It just takes time and lots of it......

Well our first Easter and we just got back from visiting Peter's family. It was nice to see them but now its 5:00 and I keep thinking about how Easter used to be. Its terrible not having him here but I guess the first one is always bad. I miss him so much and I want him back. I don't tell anyone this because I know most people are expecting me to move on. Its so hard and I just hope and pray it gets easier. I hope your day was ok and you had fun with the grandkids. It was a beautiful day and I'm glad that Winter seems to be over. Well keep in touch and take care of yourself. Talk to you soon....Diane

thanks Alaine, I like hearing from you also. I was beginning to think that I was getting stronger but I was wrong. Still miss him terribly and still cry in my car everyday on my way to work. Its only been five months so it hasn't been that long. Too many changes but I am trying to take one day at a time. I hope someday we will be able to think about Michael and Peter and it won't hurt so much. Take care and I'll talk to you soon...Diane