My dear friend, Angela,
I hear the pain in your words, and I am praying that you have a counselor that you can talk openly to. I went to a group called Tidewater Pastoral Counseling which provides a faith component if that is where you are comfortable, but it is not pushed on you in any way. The name was given to me at my church, but you could call any church in your area to see if they have a group of that nature.
With all of these tragic accidents, there is an element of guilt - we are their mothers and should protect them always, right? You will have to learn to live with the idea that not everything is in your control, and that accidents happen -- as much as we wish they didn't. You are not responsible for your daughter's death, it was a cruel moment in time where all forces came together and the worst happened. Was it God's plan or His will that she die that day? I have to believe the answer is no, but I also believe he was there with her the moment that she died to take care of her. He will take care of you, too, if you let him. I know beyond doubt that He was there with me every step of the way when my son was killed, so open your heart up to Him and ask His help. His grace and love have no bounds. Please write again.
i am so sorry for your loss, carrie is adorable. Angela it is not your fault what happened, when its someones time its their time no matter what is going on or where they are at if it was meant to be it is going to happen. Be blessed that since your daughter was sleeping she probably knew nothing and died from smoke inhalation before the fire even hit her. She was sleeping and peaceful and had no pain. Nothing you did could have stopped it. My 13 year old son died in a fatal car accident while he was visiting my family in upstate ny 21/2 hours away from me! i was such a protective mother, never ever let him ride his bike on main roads like all his other friends would, i woould leave work and go drive him to friends houses, events whatever. i protected him at all times, always knew where he was and what he was doing. He was my best friend, my baby the one who kept me alive. And i couldnt protect him from what was meant to be. I still cant beleive its true and its been 6 months but i know he is happy and safe in the hands of God and i know i will see him again one day, just as you will see your daughter. It hurts because we miss them but please realize that you are special in Gods eyes and you were blessed to have your daughter for the short years, God will repay you for your suffering and know that our children are safe away from this retched worls of pain and suffering, peer pressure, drugs disease they will never again experience suffering and they are having fun and wait for us to join them when it is our time. Your daughter wants you to be happy, make her proud cause she is watching you and still loves you, you are and always will be her mom. You are not alone here we are all "grief crazy" ha ha God bless you and keep in touch