Sorry to hear about your dad, mine passed away 4/4/09 from a heart attack. It still gets to me even today. People always say that lost their parents, I say I know exactly where he is and I just think of it as his new birthday. I wish I could say it gets better fast, but it takes time to learn how do deal with it. Praying always helps.
Eric, I do not think we are ever prepared to let our parents go. We know reality but we always avoid the day they actually pass. I have always been a very private person but found this link and decided maybe I needed to see what others were feeling. I hope that it helps you to know you are not alone as I hope it helps me. I am saddened for your loss, I know how hard it can be.
Hang in there.
Eric, I am also very sorry for your loss. I feel like my whole world has come to an end without my Dad. I was always called "Daddy's girl" and I will always be just that ! It has been 2 yrs now, I am still struggling, because Dad was always "there" for me. We are very much alike; quiet, loving, kind, honest, helpful, and now.....lost ! Dad has always been there for me,
no matter what....he loved me, & stood by me, no matter what......how does one go on ? I have times, where it hurts, so bad, that I cannot breath. The anxiety meds helped for a bit, but nothing can heal the heart when it has been broken, permanently. What do we do, and how do we go on, when someone who has been a major part of our life is no longer here ?
Eric, I'm very sorry that you lost your dad. As adults, we know that dying is going to happen, but we have never known a world without either of our parents. I think that might be why it is completely devastating. I'm having a difficult time just trying to do my normal routine. I keep thinking that my kids are going to feel this pain one day, and that terrifies me. It seems the only thing right now that is bringing me momentary relief from the heartbreak is reading what others have written. I sincerely hope this can help you also.