i really miss my son the days are so strange and so lonely with out him... i think of him day and night... it's been almost five years and it never ever get's better...my life has changed so much ..i have changed= so much...i was thinking i was suposed to be there and protect him i promised to do this the day he was born ..and when he needed me most of all i was not there...i let him down i don't know if i will ever forgive my self for this.... i think my baby must of been very scared ..i wonder what was his last though..i just wonder<3