Sorry Melena. I just found this. Thank you for your kind words of support. The thing that does actually help is hearing from someone who understands. My husband did the same thing when he lost his mom. He was the strong one and I cried all through the funeral. I guess it's how men handle grief. My son is what keeps me going. Even though he doesn't live close, I know he would be here if I needed him. He also shares in my love of my parents. Do you have kids? We need to look for reasons to keep going and you know your parents would never want you to do anything to harm yourself. If you need to talk, I'm here. Thanks again.
Hi Melena. I always think of others. I have searched for a reason why she would say those things to me with dad laying there beside me. No mother i know would say those things. I am thankful you messaged me. I feel like i need to talk.
Dear Melena, In reading your heartache story, first i'd like to tell you, my prayers are said NIGHTLY for every one here~ * Secondly, your story sounds so similiar to that of my ex-fiancee, his daughter and me. I met him 5 months after his wife (bless her heart) went to Heaven. She also had a very aggressive form of cancer. He has 2 kids. At that time, (13 yrs ago) I tried very hard to just be friends with the daughter. A BIG no go. Through the years of having been with him.. this is what i have discovered.....some men CANNOT be alone after losing their wife... Of course they should respect and honor their passed over wife.. i think there is something inside of them that is so deep.. we will never understand. Now i look back and see that i was just a body replacement..He could not be alone with his hauntings.. unfortunately it took me losing my mom in a horrific way to have joined this club~ before, i had NO clue! And i can tell u it was a Total uphill battle thru those years.. it ultimately ended via the daughters strong will to get me out of "their" picture.. My prayers for u are: that you can find the courage, time and strength to let your dad know how u truly feel...and maybe see if u can really touch hearts in sharing all :) FYI now.. i would NEVER date a newly widowed man, ever again. So please, don't do anything that may harm u in any way .... there is some wonderful greivence counseling all over.. most Free! I continue in seeking it out. May God Bless and watch over you now dear.