Hey Melinda, Im just hanging in there. Thats about all we can do. Got my train ticket to go to my brother's memorial service, which makes it more real. We got into the kitchen today, tom loved to cook and I have so many memories of him teaching me to make something in there. Just very very sad. But we did it, we made homemade veggie soup and garlic bread. Tom would have liked it, especially the garlic bread. How are you? 

Dont know why that post 6 times up there! Sorry!

I am so sorry, Melinda.  It is so hard to deal with such pain.  I dont know if it gets better w a sibling but I suppose that it would depend on ones closeness, right?  I was so close to my son and it is killing me to be without him here on earth.  My hubby is supportive most the time but at same time wants me to give him attention that I just cant.  I am so depressed and lost right now.  Just trying to make it thru each day.  I just want to be with my son.  I am so sorry, I am not any help riight now, sweetie.  I can barely help myself.

Melinda.  I had a very old friend's brother who took his life a few days after my brother died a few months ago.  there is no comfort in suicide. It leaveas us behind with a million questions that can never be answered. i wish i could hug you and tell you you will be okay.  I too am trying to find answers and at this point you just need to share your story and hear from people who have expereinced the same loss.  I dont think anyone truly shares the same feeelings of loss, but sharing and hearing that our emotions are similiar can make us feel less crazy. Im new here and so im also trying to deal with it all.  I hope you are having an okay day today.  Crying helps. I cry a lot. it releases toxins and helps you sleep:) xo

Melinda.  I had a very old friend's brother who took his life a few days after my brother died a few months ago.  there is no comfort in suicide. It leaveas us behind with a million questions that can never be answered. i wish i could hug you and tell you you will be okay.  I too am trying to find answers and at this point you just need to share your story and hear from people who have expereinced the same loss.  I dont think anyone truly shares the same feeelings of loss, but sharing and hearing that our emotions are similiar can make us feel less crazy. Im new here and so im also trying to deal with it all.  I hope you are having an okay day today.  Crying helps. I cry a lot. it releases toxins and helps you sleep:) xo

Melinda.  I had a very old friend's brother who took his life a few days after my brother died a few months ago.  there is no comfort in suicide. It leaveas us behind with a million questions that can never be answered. i wish i could hug you and tell you you will be okay.  I too am trying to find answers and at this point you just need to share your story and hear from people who have expereinced the same loss.  I dont think anyone truly shares the same feeelings of loss, but sharing and hearing that our emotions are similiar can make us feel less crazy. Im new here and so im also trying to deal with it all.  I hope you are having an okay day today.  Crying helps. I cry a lot. it releases toxins and helps you sleep:) xo

Melinda.  I had a very old friend's brother who took his life a few days after my brother died a few months ago.  there is no comfort in suicide. It leaveas us behind with a million questions that can never be answered. i wish i could hug you and tell you you will be okay.  I too am trying to find answers and at this point you just need to share your story and hear from people who have expereinced the same loss.  I dont think anyone truly shares the same feeelings of loss, but sharing and hearing that our emotions are similiar can make us feel less crazy. Im new here and so im also trying to deal with it all.  I hope you are having an okay day today.  Crying helps. I cry a lot. it releases toxins and helps you sleep:) xo