Hi Valerie, I just saw your comment on my and Justin's wall. Thank you for that. You lost Dusty close to the time I lost Justin. My Justin died July 12, 2009. I agree that the missing only gets worse. The expression "time heals all wounds" should be "time heals most wounds". Time certainly has not been a friend to me. It will soon, in a couple days,be going on 3 years and 7 months. It seems like yesterday and yet it feels like a long time since I touched him. I was going through a stack of papers today that have only been accumulating for a year and somehow a receipt Justin had signed for his senior pictures back in 1998 showed up in those papers. It is like getting a bonus anytime sometthing like that happens. I try to keep him with me by thinking about him (which I do off and on all day long) and by talking about him as though he is still here. Of course I can only refer to the past and not the present but it still helps. I somehow feel that talking about him keeps him with me at least a little. I think my family, his brothers especially, get uncomfortable at times but I refuse to not talk about him. They miss him just like I do but they have lives and want to move on. I really do not want to move on away from Justin. My best to you Valerie and to Dusty.

Hi Valerie I just read your comment on the main wall. I too lost my only child/son Joe. He was on his motorcycle when he was fatally injured by a drunk driver. It will be 3 years April 5th 2013. Joe was 42 12 years old and his friends are all celebrating their 46th birthdays this year as Joe would have done in August. I celebrate his birthday in my heart.

I can identify with you in that we can not birth another child.

I go through the motions and continue doing most things I did before the tragedy.

I'm going to get ready for a meeting for my garden club. We are taking part in the NJ flower and garden show. We will be decorating a Subaru Car as tailgating for the Mardi Gras parade. I have some items and each person may contribute to it I'm looking forward to my friend picking me up in about an hour from now.

I need to keep busy because my mother passed away Nov. 19, 2012. Now I have no one in my immediate blood line as my brother and father also had passed more than 15 years ago.

Sending Love,

Barbara

Hi Valerie its been awhile that haven't seen your post I don'tpost to often but I do come and read posts my Jesse has been gone almost 4 years on 7/12/09 I miss him every day .I'm glad your back ..so how have you been doing friend how I wish we all lived close by to visit each other but I'm so glad for this website thanx to Tami hope to hear from you Hugs to you ,,,Alicia Jesses Mom