February 2010 Blog Posts (99)

I feel like a fish in a fishbowl

One of the worst things is that as time goes by and everyone goes back to their lives and it's just you. Everyone tells you you have so much to live for your kids, grandkids and your family and friends. I'm very happy for them but i feel like i'm lving in fishbowl watching everyone else live and be happy and all those precious moments they get to experiance. I Love them all very much but it's so hard watching and knowing i'm not sharing those precious moments with the man I Loved so much, we… Continue

Added by judy on February 16, 2010 at 6:37pm — No Comments

Condolences to Aunt Lois Williams

Hi Christine,

It's time like this we really need each other. I wanted you to know you and your family are in my prayers. May Aunt Lolo rest in peace.

Added by Kim Shepherd on February 16, 2010 at 2:28pm — No Comments

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Added by Adams Mom on February 16, 2010 at 2:08pm — 3 Comments

In Kentucky

I'm here in Kentucky for the week. I miss you so much it hurts. I keep wanting to pick up the phone and call you just to talk about the little things. How much snow there is outside, how Sam, their dog, is finally warming up to us. How I can't wait to get back home, and how I wish you were here. I am so sad I can hardly breathe. I read all the posts from people who are grieving online and they are all pretty much the same. No hope. Sometimes in my darkest times, I think it would be better for… Continue

Added by Debbie on February 16, 2010 at 10:45am — No Comments

Cooking up some comfort

We had a lot of snow last week, three feet deep. With no place to go, it seemed an opportune time to try my hand at something I’d wanted to do for the last nine years; attempt to make my mom’s stuffed cabbage recipe.

My mom called herself a short order cook and one of her favorite ways to comfort was something homemade from her kitchen. I was a lucky recipient and every time we visited, she prepared three of my favorite recipes. Why would I bother to cook them myself when she was so…

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Added by Robbie Miller Kaplan on February 16, 2010 at 10:30am — 1 Comment

Almost a year ago now

It's been almost year a ago that we lost Our Big Brother and he has been on my mind a lot lately. Why? The nightmares have ended, the of pain losing him hasn't been bothering me, but lately he has been on my mind.....It's done..It's over... No going back...Nothing would have improved his life, so why am I beating myself up about it now?

This time last year, I was back home doing the last thing I thought I'd never have to do...make the decision to end his life..Unplug his life support. I… Continue

Added by Connie on February 16, 2010 at 1:08am — No Comments

A new perspective?

"John Bowlby, a noted psychiatrist, outlined the ebb and flow of processes such as shock and numbness, yearning and searching, disorganization and despair, and reorganization." - Wikipedia.org

I'm going to need to learn more about this model of grief, because the more reading I'm doing, the more I'm seeing consensus that the Kübler-Ross model (which was based on people facing death rather than on those who survived the death of a loved one) isn't always the best roadmap for dealing… Continue

Added by Chris B on February 16, 2010 at 12:01am — No Comments

loss of my soulmate

I lost my soulmate and wife after 33 years of fabulous marriage. I am devasted and find great difficulty in going forward. The pain is so intense. I struggle with continuing, but my kids need me.

Bill Hare

Added by Bill Hare on February 15, 2010 at 6:18pm — No Comments

Birthday

My Moms birthday is March 14. I keep going over in my head her last birthday. She was in the hospital. She was having a good day and seemed so happy. She never got to wear the outfit I bought her and that is so gut wrenching to me. I just want her back.

Added by Nancy Fritch on February 15, 2010 at 6:12pm — No Comments

Sweet memories

I was out on a "Girls Weekend" this past weekend, and during the shopping I couldn't help but think about Robby. I replayed one of my favorite memories... he hugged me and we leaned on my car in his front yard and he told me "Want to know one of the reasons I love you so much?" and of course I said yes, and he went on to say, "Because you are you, and you don't care if anyone doesn't like that. I've always tried to be like you because you just don't care what people think. And I think that is… Continue

Added by Jessica on February 15, 2010 at 2:46pm — No Comments

Getting Through The First Holiday, Valentine's Day Without My Husband

Good Morning,

I made it through the first Valentine's Day without my husband. The day before Valentine's Day was very hard. I cried most of the day. My husband, Noel always prepared a wonderful dinner for me and always had a dozen roses and a sweet card. I spent the day with my son, daughter-in-law, grandson and family members. It was pleasant and it kept me from constantly thinking about what I don't have. I have kept every valentine that my husband ever gave me. I re-read them… Continue

Added by Shelia Painter on February 15, 2010 at 10:17am — 1 Comment

Daddy From Heaven

Her hair up in a pony tail…

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Added by Rachael on February 15, 2010 at 4:48am — 2 Comments

Support and sleep

I took a full pill last night and slept like a rock, for which I'm grateful. I woke up in a much better mood and got a little bit of cleaning done. Today was the first meeting of the Widowed Persons Support Group, and even though today was basically a "Hi, my name is..." session, I'm hopeful that it will be helpful. I bawled in the car afterwards before I started driving - my first serious cry of the day. Considering that it's Valentine's Day, I think that's pretty good.

One of my… Continue

Added by Chris B on February 14, 2010 at 9:24pm — No Comments

NO FRIENDS

WISH SOMEONE BE A FRIEND AND WRITE TO ME ,I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO INVITE A FRIEND MY E-MAIL?vickson2@verizon.net really need friends to communicate with before i have a complete breakdown

Added by violet la pollo on February 14, 2010 at 9:02pm — 2 Comments

How do I carry on?what do i do?

Im 39 years old and lost my mom last sunday 2- 7-2010, mom had a quadupal bypass in july, and was recovering fine so we thought till tey flew her by lifestar helicopter to another hospital she had a sent put in after that she never seemed the same. though The DR.S said it wasnt her heart . she kept going to te emergancy room and they woud treat her for things such as dehydration, urinary tract infection, and even animea ( she had a blood transfusion) and wuld always send her home... kind of… Continue

Added by JEN on February 14, 2010 at 5:43pm — No Comments

I lost my sis to ovarian cancer......

I lost my sister on December 18, 2009 to a year long fight with ovarian cancer. Jan was my only sibling and even though she was 6 years older than me and lived across the country, we shared a great bond. She was a confidant, mentor and a giver but to me she was also my "big" sis! I was there at her passing but still have a difficult time in understanding that she is gone. I never saw her that often because of the distance, but we did have a lot of marathon phone conversations. Just this weekend… Continue

Added by Kathi on February 14, 2010 at 12:14pm — No Comments

Warning. Sad Andy in the House...

Valentine's Day

It was Laura’s favorite holiday. She loved Valentine’s Day and now it’s 2 days away and I’m feeling more anxious about it than I did for our first Christmas without her.

Actually one of my daughter’s said, “I thought Thanksgiving was her favorite holiday.” And of course it was. So was Halloween…and New Year’s Eve…and while she never said Christmas was her favorite she often said she loved Christmas time. Those are 2 different… Continue

Added by Andrew Koehn on February 13, 2010 at 11:00pm — No Comments

Surviving today

This was not a good day. I slept miserably because I thought "I'll try to sleep without a pill" and as a result I was up every hour or so. This morning was the first time that I think I seriously considered suicide, to the point of looking stuff up online and thinking about what I had around the house, whether we had any bullets for the revolver, the realization that was too messy, but wait - there's a whole bottle of his hydrocodone in the medicine cabinet and wouldn't that be appropriate?… Continue

Added by Chris B on February 13, 2010 at 7:20pm — No Comments

I lost my son and my life tragically January 03, 2010...

I lost my son Tragically on January 03, 2010...His name is Eloy Conrad Duran III he is 25 years old and has a five year old daughter...Living his life with his daughter was his passion in life...he loved her soo much it consumed his and her life...being a happy, considerate, loving, caring, compassionate person, he was always happy and at peace...giving of himself to anybody who needed help, making friends was a trait he had like no other...enjoying every second of everyday of his life...He was… Continue

Added by ELOY CONRAD DURAN II on February 13, 2010 at 10:58am — 7 Comments

lost my son

i lost my son a year ago feb 17 and i have a hard time with this. if i try and talk about him i start crying and some of my family keep telling me to let go or why are you punishing yourself all the time. how do i cope with this?

Added by marilyn johnson on February 13, 2010 at 10:02am — No Comments