March 2010 Blog Posts (110)

My Husband

I have recently lost the love of my life. We met when I was only 15 years old and married when I was 16. We have been married for 27 1/2 years and he just passed away on
3-12-10 and I don't know how to keep going. I can't remember what my life was like before John and I can't picture it now without him. Can someone please tell me how to survive this? how to make it thru the day without crying? How to comfort my kids and grandkids? Please,, I need help.

Added by Lorie Reid on March 31, 2010 at 3:27pm — 6 Comments

The Physical Aspect of Grief: A Natural Healing Therapy

Not only does grief disrupt and ‘irritate’ our mental and emotional states of mind, it can also play havoc with our physical bodies.

According to Susan Neva, L.P.N., C.C.T, a practicing colon hydrotherapist in Tempe, Arizona, when one is going through a difficult time -- whether sad, depressed or grief-stricken -- individuals have a tendency to “hold on.” For many, this holding on affects bodily waste elimination.

In this situation, Susan recommends utilizing a Castor Oil… Continue

Added by Ellen Gerst on March 31, 2010 at 3:00pm — No Comments

Dreams

Last night I had a dream that I was caring for my son in the hospital the was the last time I saw him after that lady collided with his motorcycle.

It was so real we was almost to healing then out of nowhere a coffin appeared in my dream I woke up crying. We should not have to go through this life with all the pain (of death) that I read about. Yes it is a difference when it is unexpected no prior illness someone else fault that is hard to get over because of that person your child will… Continue

Added by Janet Long on March 31, 2010 at 1:32pm — No Comments

another "first"

it is almost easter...my first one without michael...it is still so surreal...i am going to do an easter egg hunt for my grandaughters. i just started this last year. i will miss michael being there for the hunt. he had such fun last year hiding the eggs for the girls.

Added by alaine dougherty on March 31, 2010 at 8:06am — No Comments

Dad

Wow! My dad killed himself 4 years ago....i am so glad to have found this place. My friend killed himself a few weeks ago. Its so strange how all those feelings just come right back about my dad. You learn to live with it but the pain never goes away and it hurts so....bad. I am all ways comforted by the fact that he is happy now. i will say that I am glad I have been able to stay away from the dark place that paralizes you. I still get mad every now and again but thats how it goes. The songs… Continue

Added by Heather 33 on March 30, 2010 at 9:29am — No Comments

Share Happy Memories

I lost my son May 9, 2008 at age 18. I have shared my story of grief and healing with many, I thought it would be a great idea if we all shared a story of a happy time with our child or loved one, something that will make us smile.

Light a Candle in Memory of a Loved One
CircleOfLifeOnline.com
Heartfelt Gifts in Memory of Our Loved Ones

Added by KHunk on March 30, 2010 at 9:00am — 10 Comments

first time blogging

THis is in memory of my brother, JOhn, who I lost 2/26/10.

Added by Susan Bradley on March 30, 2010 at 8:56am — No Comments

DOOMED

So Scott leaves me home with Reese this afternoon. I am literally never alone with the kids. Yesterday he printed out a bunch of pictures of Emmie and put them in albulms for the girls. Reese starts looking through hers and loses it. Crying, sobbing, asking what happened and can she see Emmie one more time. WHY did this happen to us? I can not even function to comfort her. She tells me that someone told her that they know someone that got hit by a car and did not even die. She is asking what… Continue

Added by Danielle on March 30, 2010 at 12:30am — 1 Comment

When Is "Strength" Not a Strength?

My mother died in October after a summer-long illness. Her death came only a few weeks after my father-in-law had passed away suddenly. I thought I was handling everything quite well; I made the funeral arrangements, delivered the tribute at her memorial service and served as executor of her estate. For months I had been doing my best to keep my business running while going to the hospital or nursing home every day to ensure that my mother was well cared for. I wrote most of my blog posts and… Continue

Added by Mary Wilson on March 29, 2010 at 3:20pm — No Comments

What is left

On the 23rd of last month I lost my wife of 37 years.We met in 1970 In 71 we decided to run from very bad child hoods. We made it through every thing life throw at us and rased two awsom son who gave us two grand babies Missy "C" who is now 4 years old ad Jewl who is 6 mo.. She loved being a grandma it was so unfair that she had to go now.I would gladly change places with her. I wake up alone and wonder about my day just to go to bed alone. I ask why go on a part of my sole was ripped from my… Continue

Added by Dave on March 29, 2010 at 2:25pm — No Comments

I need to share..

my husband died suddenly this past july 24. he was incredibly healthy. since he was an organ donor i could not do an autopsy. it would not have changed things anyway. i am always looking for ways to help me on my journey down the path of grief. 30 seconds was suggested to me by a friend...so here i am! i find that writing about my grief is incredibly helpful. it has been eight months and time just seems to be standing still. i am reading books, seeing my therapist, exercising, seeing friends… Continue

Added by alaine dougherty on March 29, 2010 at 10:46am — No Comments

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tTODAY IS A BAD DAY FOR ME . I MISS MY HUSBAND SOOOOOOOOO MUCH. I THOUGHT IT WOULD GET JUST A LIL BIT BETTER WITH TIME BUT IT'S NOT. HE DIED NOVEMBER 5TH 2009.SO MUCH IS HAPPENING IN MY LIFE THAT I WANT SHARE WITH HIM.BUT HE'S GONE!!

Added by jeanette williams on March 29, 2010 at 10:07am — 1 Comment

EVER

This can not be real, how can this have happened. It is like the most horrifying nightmare in the world and I can not wake up. I am going crazy.

I am lying on the couch, where I have been since I got up. I have nothing in me today. Having to go to the play yesterday was all I could do. The kids are eating dinner on the couch. Whatever Scott nuked them. We used to sit at the table as a family every night. We have not had one meal as a family since Emmie died. We are no longer a… Continue

Added by Danielle on March 28, 2010 at 11:55pm — 1 Comment

UNTIL ITS NOT

Living is always better than dying.....until its not.

Today was a day that makes me realize how much we have lost, in addition to the ultimate loss, of Emmie. Reese had a party for a little girl in her class which for Reese is a big deal. The party happened to be at Kidz Planet which is where Reese had her party in January. One of the videos we have of Emmie is my three girls in the lobby there waiting for Reese's party to start. They are all hyped up, laughing and chasing each other… Continue

Added by Danielle on March 27, 2010 at 9:34pm — 1 Comment

Honey, Help Me

The other day the lawyer that is handling Gary's probate said something out of the blue that made me feel a lot better and maybe a bit sadder in a way. I told him that I hadn't realized how quickly I had become one of those women that didn't know much about our combined finances or where certain records were stored. I told him that I had been divorced for 15 years before Gary and I were married and I didn't know how to take care of this stuff again. He looked at me calmly and he said, "You… Continue

Added by Colleen on March 27, 2010 at 6:01pm — No Comments

Paying Tribute to a Dying Loved One

A celebration of life before the funeral

Q. My aunt is terminally ill and has been told by her doctors to “get her affairs in order.” My family and I have decided to organize a life tribute to her…sort of giving her flowers while she lives. She contributed to the social work profession for more than thirty years. We don’t want to wait until her funeral for people to speak well of her. What should we highlight during this…

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Added by Florence Isaacs on March 27, 2010 at 12:30pm — 1 Comment

PICTURES

I look at the pictures of Emerson. She is sooooo beautiful. I can tell you when everyone was taken, where we were, what we were doing. I remember how it felt. There is one of us camping this past fall. It was unseasonably cold. We are lying in one of those zero gravity chairs, we both have on our vests, I know what her weight felt like lying along my body, I know the warmth of her cheek on my lips in the cold air. We were snuggling to stay warm. I remember the moment exactly. That weekend we… Continue

Added by Danielle on March 26, 2010 at 11:48pm — No Comments

Ramblings

I had to drive Cayden to her play dress rehearsal tonight. It is the first time I have been outside after dark since we lost Emerson. You know the look the sky gets at night, in the last moments of twilight when the trees are dark shadows against the sky and the world looks huge. I used to love that but tonight all I could think was -Emerson, where are you? How can a child that I created and brought into this world just be gone. How can someone with her happiness and love just be gone, no where… Continue

Added by Danielle on March 26, 2010 at 10:34pm — No Comments

the most horrible thing

still tyring to cope with the lost of my son father,i gave birth three days after he took his own life

Added by thomasina on March 26, 2010 at 9:50pm — No Comments

Don't know what else to do.....

I am still so sad over losing Dad that I do not know what else to do. I ask and pray for him to come see me in a dream and let me know that he is ok. And yet nothing. I am going through life like a zombie.... I am just going through the motions... I feel bad for my children that now, get no attention from me. I feel lost... Is this normal?

Added by Lydia on March 25, 2010 at 11:41pm — 1 Comment