March 2010 Blog Posts (110)

LOSTOF BOTH PARANTS

MY MOTHER WAS DARTHA CHARLENE KELLEY HERWE LOST HER WHEN I WAS 12 MY SISTER CANDACE WAS 11 MY SISTER SUSAN WASWAS 15,MY BROTHERS WHERE18BILLY&RONNIE ALSOP MY DAD JAMES HARLON KELLEY NOW THEY ARE TOGETHER AGAIN WITH THERE DAUGHTER & GRANDCHILD,also with there moms&dads , with no more pain and sadness may god be with then, it has been 30ys since mom passed &3yrs dad, Iwish this on noone god I MISS THEM BUT WE WILL BE TOGETHER AGAIN ONE DAY WHEN GOD WANTS US, SANDRA KAY

Added by sandra on March 14, 2010 at 7:45am — No Comments

GUILT

I watched a video today, on the computer, just 60 seconds. Its the three girls, running around, laughing, chasing eachother, my family, what it is supposed to be, so happy. Emmie is all smiles, so excited, so happy, full of life, healthy. Moving 100 miles an hour, nothing wrong. Just a few short weeks ago.

How does anyone come back from this. I lost my soulmate. Another mom I talked to used that term. She was explaining how the child she lost completed her. I get it, it is the right… Continue

Added by Danielle on March 13, 2010 at 2:56pm — 1 Comment

Slide Show of my Baby

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Added by Danielle on March 13, 2010 at 12:30pm — No Comments

Imprint on our hearts

My dear one passed away 4 months ago to suicide, leaving behind 3 beautiful children. I have been in a daze and just wanted the world to stop. Christmas was so difficult to face without him. Sometimes I feel like he is with me or maybe that is my wishful thinking. So many thoughts flood through my mind, I remember our last conversation so well, he told me so many beautiful things, little did I relize that he was saying goodbye!! He didn't want me to know and he hid it so well and was soo strong… Continue

Added by Mandy on March 13, 2010 at 10:54am — No Comments

March - Now What?

Today is the 13th of March. Which means that there is a St. Patty's Day parade going on where we use to live. That would make me lonely enough, just knowing that I'm here not there. Of course if Gary was alive we might be there. We traveled the three hours back and forth quite often and he knows I'm a sucker for a good parade. But by the same token, my daughters are working today and my son wouldn't care to go to a parade and Gary really couldn't walk far, so I might not have gone anyway. I… Continue

Added by Colleen on March 13, 2010 at 10:09am — No Comments

The lost of a brother

I need some one to talk to and understand the pain I'm in. I lost my brother 9-5-09 he was just 33 years old. I'm the blame my brother isn't here to day he was on drug so I try one of the family thing and hold him if he didn't fo get help then we all was going to turn our backs. That was the wrong thing to say he did go get help in a inpa drug rehab and past away 48 hours later I just cant stop thanking i killed my best freind so if i didn't ask him to go get help he would still be here with… Continue

Added by Ericka on March 13, 2010 at 12:30am — No Comments

Out of the darkness

LLiska here. Boston is having an 18 mile dusk to dawn suicide prevention walk. Out of the darkness. To educate people on the illnesses and situations (like depression) that are killing our loved ones. The world needs to be aware of mental illness and horrible stressors, fear, and depression-signs, symptoms,ect.Florida is one of the states that has no mental health coverage. My friend can't even get a therapist and she's depressed and stressed about our friends suicide! I'm walking. People need… Continue

Added by Lisa Marie Wawrzynski - (Liska) on March 12, 2010 at 8:54pm — No Comments

I think of her everyday...

I lost my mother to cancer 5 years ago. She was not only my mother but my best friend and confidante. It is the most difficult thing that I have ever went through. I still think of her everyday. I dream about her sometimes and I wonder if anyone else out there dreams about a lost loved one?

Added by Julie on March 12, 2010 at 12:56pm — No Comments

DESPAIR

I have not cried as much today. My body is exhausted. I have laid in the same spot on the couch for the past 16 hours. That is all I do every day. I can not go out, answer the door or the phone. I realize that somehow I am blocking something because if I really think of Emmie, the reality, I can not even breathe. I think of how happy she was, the joy she brought me, the walks we have taken, the cuddles we have shared, she was my constant companion, my little love bear, how can they be over, how… Continue

Added by Danielle on March 12, 2010 at 11:10am — 1 Comment

Angry at son's friends

Well, as to e expected most of my son's friends are arguing about who was at fault regarding the horrible accident that caused my sons death. If you are a fan of Facebook you can read the posts: Laura Franzen - Dakota Smith - Dakota Smith support group. I am trying to make it clear that I am not trying to point fingers at just the driver, although the responsibility lays on him, but I don't think that I am getting through to the others. Does anyone have any suggestions on how to do this? or… Continue

Added by Laura Smith on March 12, 2010 at 9:59am — 1 Comment

Almost paralyzed by grief

Hello, I just want to say that I am so impressed and touched by all the kind words and advice. I, too, lost my precious mother last November and I break down crying several times a day and just cry my heart out. I look forward to being part of your discussion.

Added by Ann on March 12, 2010 at 9:23am — No Comments

WE NEED HELP!!!!!!!!

My family and I needs help with the lost of my one and only love

Added by Kayla on March 11, 2010 at 10:49pm — No Comments

Going shopping for the first time

Today was the first time I've had to go to the grocery store without Gary or without buying the things that he liked. I realized while I was there that I didn't even know what I liked to eat without thinking of his dietary needs and foods he liked first. It was a fairly horrible experience. I cried while I was there. I tried to hide it and outside of appearing a bit distressed I don't think anyone actually noticed. I looked at a lot of things that I would have normally bought, but now that I… Continue

Added by Colleen on March 11, 2010 at 3:54pm — 1 Comment

My Angel....

crystal said…
I lost my son Joshua Whittle in June 2009 he got killed in Afghanistan.He was my only child.And I miss him so MUCH!!I love you Joshua!!
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Added by crystal on March 10, 2010 at 10:31am — 4 Comments

Healing with a Blog

It has been about two months since I lost my mother.

I think the only thing that is holding me together is

my mission to document her life and experiences

and to eventually talk about how I lost her. I started

a blog to "relive" her life. I think it will help me to

understand and eventually accept what I can't change.

I think others might find this tool helpful too.

It's painful. My final sentences of each entry are very

painful and involve much tears. I… Continue

Added by Julie on March 10, 2010 at 12:48am — No Comments

Still Hurting

It's been three months and the hurt is hard and people act like nothing has happened. My dear Mother passed on Nov. 29th and it was too soon, I thought we had many more years together, she died 23 months after my Dad. I'm so sad that she left me, that they both left, Too Soon. I wish they were hear.

Added by Ruth on March 9, 2010 at 3:06pm — 2 Comments

The Dance

Scott is sitting next to me, playing a slide show of photos. I glance over now and then and see the picures. It hurts even more today. She is so happy in all of them, enjoying life. I am SO ANGRY for her. It is not fair, why does she not get to continue to learn and grow. She LOVED life, was so excited about everything. Everyday was an adventure, even if we were just staying home. She was so busy, so happy. She LOVED us, all of us so much. She loved having sisters, she loved her family, we all… Continue

Added by Danielle on March 9, 2010 at 1:17pm — No Comments

TWO/TOO

I went online today. To look at the guestbook from the local newspaper. They list the obituaries in order. It is weekly so Em's is just being published. I look at all the names, all the ages. Age 84, 79, 68, 2. TWO- My baby was 2, a baby, no chance to live her life and she so loved life. She almost never cried, all smiles, all the time. Always ready for adventure. Why was she taken from me? My name should be there 35. Still horribly young but infinitely older.

I think of all the… Continue

Added by Danielle on March 9, 2010 at 1:06pm — No Comments

Your Last Goodbye

You want to leave a last goodbye, but how can you do that today?

Getting your affairs in order, thinking of your own death, is emotionally hard. Even harder may be facing the task of creating a last goodbye for your loved ones. Almost any other task is more attractive, whether rain or shine, snow, gloom of night. Still, getting everything in order has an attractive pull: You know that your loved ones will cherish your goodbye—and you’ll be pleased when the task is…

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Added by Melanie Cullen on March 9, 2010 at 1:00pm — 7 Comments

"The hardest thing in this world is to live in it."

Had the worst day in weeks today. Just got to the point where I completely didn't care about anything. Work, my job, keeping my job, the house, the chores, anything. I considered just walking out on my job and not caring about the consequences. I fought through it, eventually, and the afternoon was a little better. Hearing the thunder (instead of just the boring, grey, drizzly rain we've had) actually helped... I hope we have more thunderstorms soon. Nothing destructive, but something… Continue

Added by Chris B on March 8, 2010 at 11:30pm — No Comments