July 2010 Blog Posts (56)

I am so lost...

My husband of 18 years passed away on June 1, 2010 from cancer. He was only 40. We were married 18 years and together for 1/2 our lives (20yrs). I am having such a hard time dealing with his death. He was truely my best friend and soulmate. We did EVERYTHING together. I don't know how to live without him. Part of me just wants to die and the other part of me is already dead. I cry all the time and there is this pain in my heart that is so unbearable. People say in time the pain will get better,… Continue

Added by Kim on July 31, 2010 at 8:25am — 10 Comments

Faith Arising

I thought I had lost it-my faith. I thought there was only emptiness, but somehow that seems to be the only thing left. I must find something inside me that can help. Missing her makes everything a thousand times harder, so now I'm searching...

Added by Ann on July 30, 2010 at 3:26pm — 1 Comment

(I was a brother) Solitarily Confined

I am resigned to the fact that there won't be many new developments about the point at which I'm living life now. Learning the new way to live is where I make my biggest strides. It's a dreadful thought that right as I am beginning my life journey and trying to make it in the world, and discovering what there is to live for along the way, one of the biggest reasons for all of that is lost. When I am suppose to have 'everything to live for', 'your whole life ahead of you', the person who was…

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Added by Dastan on July 29, 2010 at 6:00am — No Comments

Guilty

I had to take my Mom off life support, I didn't know her wishes, I feel like I killed my Mom. I could have done it today, tomorrow, or a week, but I chose the day. This is so hard to live with, I ask God's forgiveness and her forgiveness. She didn't know what my brother and I were doing, it is not fair for someone else to make that decision. It was her life! God forgive me, I need peace in my heart and to tell my Mom I am so sorry. Any suggestions on dealing with this issue.

Added by RL on July 28, 2010 at 11:15pm — 1 Comment

I feel very lost and alone!

At 12:47pm on July 28th, 2010, Brandy M Creech Mullis said…

I just lost my mom suddenly on June 26,2010 she was only 56 years old. I have ok days and then I have bad days and on the bad days I can't stop crying. My heart hurts and I am having such a hard time dealing with the grief. I found there is no word that could explan the pain that comes with losing your mom. She was my rock and made me strong when I didn't think I could do it. If anyone could give me some words of wisdom to ease… Continue

Added by Brandy M Creech Mullis on July 28, 2010 at 1:53pm — 3 Comments

Moving On

It has now been 2 years and 1 month since I lost my Tom. It has been a time of adjustment, transition, inner searching, and learning. I have survived and I am stronger for the ordeal.

But now it is time to move on. I am not letting go, I am moving on. I will never forget the 45 years I had with Tom but now it is time for the second half of my life to begin.

I have met a man with whom I am cautiously exploring the future. He does not in any way remind me of my Tom. He is a… Continue

Added by Sue Darby on July 28, 2010 at 1:30pm — No Comments

Keeping in touch with those dealing with loss

Not too long ago, there was a death in my family. One family member shared that she had taken care of things; she’d sent a sympathy note and made a donation in the loved one’s memory. She’s correct; she did just what she was supposed to do. But what happens in the days and months after the cards and donations cease?

A friend dealing with a loss shared that one thing she noticed was how quickly other people move on. When you’ve had a significant loss and while you’re grieving and…

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Added by Robbie Miller Kaplan on July 27, 2010 at 2:30pm — No Comments

In Memory Of Billy Gene Miller Jr

I miss you and love you. i promise one day that guy will be behind bars and you'll be able to rest. i am always thinking of you.

Added by Ashley Wheeler on July 27, 2010 at 9:28am — No Comments

I feel so alone

I just can't stop crying. I feel so empty.

Added by Bell on July 26, 2010 at 3:25pm — 6 Comments

Pain in my heart

Pain in my heart grows

Missing my friend,heart and soul.My mind is in a whirl.Can't think straight.The sadness and the lonlyness inside,is just ripping me apart.Sure the stress level is down,but not a day goes by that I am not thinking of Dennis and what happened that nite.My heart is black,when it come's to some people.And it will alway's stay that way.No one will ever make me feel any differant about that.No matter how many doctor's I have to see.A person can't change the feeling's in… Continue

Added by Frieda Lumpkins on July 26, 2010 at 11:42am — No Comments

Miss you my friend

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I miss you more and more everyday
There is nothing anyone can say
My heart was broken,never to mend
It will stay this way till the end

I can't let go,and I know it really does show
The pain,broken heart,the lost of my soul
I will see you again,when it is my time
Then together that cloud we shall climb

Miss you

Added by Frieda Lumpkins on July 26, 2010 at 11:40am — No Comments

Grudge

Grudge
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1. bitterness, rancor, malevolence, enmity, hatred. Grudge, malice, spite refer to ill will held against another or others. A grudge is a feeling of resentment harbored because of some real or fancied wrong: to hold a grudge; She has a grudge against him.: Spite

Added by Frieda Lumpkins on July 26, 2010 at 11:25am — No Comments

Life in a world of Black

Life in a world of black

I live in a world of black,with no lite's to turn on.A hole where my heart used to be.I can't seem to move forward in this life.I am held back by my past.My past want let go.It has these big black arm's that has a hold on me.Hatred is a hard word,but it is here to stay.I am afraid to go forward,because I don't want to forget.I am scared I will forget.So I stay in my black world,with no way to get out.People say let it go.I can't do that.This is my… Continue

Added by Frieda Lumpkins on July 26, 2010 at 11:23am — 1 Comment

SUSPICIOUS SUICIDE- CONTACT ME!

My sister lost her life in 1981.

now we know the answer to why.

copy and paste this link..read Lori's story..then pass it to all you know.

Looking for other families like mine!

www.Drugawareness.org/recentcases/suspicious-suicide-of-sister

ANYONE WHO LOST SOMEONE TO SUICIDE NEEDS TO READ LORI'S STORY. IF STORY IS SIMILAR..YOU TOO CAN HAVE CLOSURE TO A DEATH THAT SHOULD OF NEVER HAPPENED!

FAILURE TO WARN-

FAILURE TO COME FORWARD!

I… Continue

Added by Lisa on July 25, 2010 at 10:55am — No Comments

Still Hurting

It has been eleven months since Nick died. I really cannot even believe it still. Last year on July 13th, 2009, Nickolas has been in the hospital for 39 DAYS! Can anyone believe that? I cannot believe it and I freakin' lived it!!!! As I go through this summer, I think about how last summer basically did not even exist! Whole chunks of my life seem to be missing and I have to constantly do a review in my head..."Oh yeah, last summer I wasn't at the studio. I was at the hospital every day." The… Continue

Added by Big D on July 24, 2010 at 9:23pm — No Comments

Having a hard time today it's the anniversary of 1 year that I lost my grandchild it's hard.

Added by Debbie McClain on July 24, 2010 at 12:20pm — No Comments

Soulmate

I lost my husband1-1-2002,due to my ex son in law.Who was a cop at the time.Everyone know's that good old boy thing.I am still not coping with his death.I am on meds because of all this.Our county was in bad shape at the time.And ithas taking this long to find someone to listen to me and my kids.They have called in The Texas Rangers.And we have found out the statments my daughter and I gave can not be found.I feel nothing but hatered for these's people.And to make matters worse,my ex son in law… Continue

Added by Frieda Lumpkins on July 24, 2010 at 12:00pm — No Comments

my dez...

dear dez mom misses you so much it hurts so bad there are no words in this world to make it all better...it will never ever be all better...went to my frist patrole hearing and we won this round...but i know he will be out some day and you will still be dead...not fair.....

Added by helen rodriguez on July 22, 2010 at 8:12pm — 2 Comments

Help Yourself Heal Through Story Telling

Everyone loves a good story! And although a story can entertain us, it also is a powerful tool that allows a writer to transform a reader’s way of thinking in order to let him or her see the world from a new perspective — perhaps even tilting the view a couple of degrees to the positive.

Death and other losses, as no other occurrence, teaches the survivor important lessons about the sanctity of life. As a part of the grief journey, the survivor can metamorphose into the most… Continue

Added by Ellen Gerst on July 22, 2010 at 6:00am — No Comments

Losing My Oldest Son Johnny

I am so not looking for July 24,this will be 1 year that my oldest son died with liver failure..I seems like yesterday that this happened ,feeling the depression setting in and holding back the tears not to upset the rest of the family is so hard i will cry at night when everyone is still sleeping or I will go outside at night and sit on the bench and look up at the stars and as myself Why??My family is great support but they don't understand that I would just like to be left alone at times.YES… Continue

Added by Amelia R Chavez on July 22, 2010 at 2:00am — 4 Comments