today is the start of another long weeken, I am not looking forward to the fall or winter. Fall was his time of year, hunting season and I use to go with him just to be with him. He was my best friend and partner we were inseparble. This is what makes it so hard, we both use to say,I don't know what life would be without you, I'll tell you it is a very lonely life without him. Continue

Its been nine long days since my Mom passed away. How could she be gone? How could it be 9 days already? The sadness get worse every single day. I always knew someday she would be gone but there is nothing to compare to the reality of knowing I'll never hear her voice again or ever see her the rest of my life. I can't believe I will never get another phone call from her or be able to call her and ask for that favorite recipe. I already miss our shopping trips, the daily phone calls, the time… Continue

I sit and wonder how u are and what u are doing and why I am still here? I don't want to be here I want my family. I can't believe how my heart hurts. I have never been so sad in all my life. I do well to pull myself up at times. Another day and I have to face it without u. I can't believe it. Everything I ever believed in is gone. The God of my child hood is not the God that took my son. 7 years we battled,I sat by your bed so many night praying. I just knew God had healed u and everything…

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I have been thinking of my Mom so much today. I went shopping and everything I looked at reminded me of her in one way or another. There was a necklace in Sears, it said mother daughter on it, one part the daughter would were and the other other said mother and the mother would wear it. I got a tear in my eyes knowing that I could never share this with my mother. Then there was another piece a pin that said Nana. My neices and nephews would call her Nana. Scarfs, reminded me of her, she would… Continue

I have been thinking of my Mom so much today. I went shopping and everything I looked at reminded me of her in one way or another. There was a necklace in Sears, it said mother daughter on it, one part the daughter would were and the other said mother and the mother would wear it. I got a tear in my eyes knowing that I could never share this with my mother. Then there was another piece a pin that said Nana. My neices and nephews would call her Nana. Scarfs, reminded me of her, she would aways… Continue

I guess that I should start this by telling my mom's crisis story. On November 17, 2009 I called my mother to check on her since she wasn't feeling well. She told me that she felt like she was having chest pains and I told her to go to the E.R. She said that she had a Dr.'s appointment later that afternoon and would be fine, that she just needed to rest. I knew better but she was stubborn. Continue

I lost my 42yrold brother Danny after a 5 month struggle with liver cancer. September 11th has changed my life so much. We all were there when he passed. It's that last night I can't get out of my mind. He was in unbeleiveable amount of pain. i have worked in homecare and hospice most of my life but I never seen the fear and agony like I did that night.... I am now a complete mess. It seems to be getting hardier rather than easier . I can't focus , sleep or work. I loved my brother very much… Continue

The day my father was buried – July 4, 1996 – a young tennis player named MaliVai Washington made it all the way to the finals at Wimbledon. Meanwhile, Mal’s then-girlfriend-now-wife, Jennifer, came to the service on the beach at Ponte Vedra, Fla. to join a small band of George Soper fans paying their last respects.



George and Mal had been unlikely friends. A 70-ish white man, decidedly Republican and retired though not a “suit.” And a handsome,…

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I finally found a comfortable way to sleep. Immediately following my husband's death, at age 52 yrs a few weeks ago, I began sleeping with his favorite shirt that linger's his smell, including his cologne. I could never find a comfortable way of sleeping with this t-shirt. Finally, I figured out to use this t-shirt as a pillowcase for his pillow which I also use for my own. Now I feel comforted when I sleep..

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I have settled in to my new apartment here in my home town of Roanoke, VA. I finally have the place the way I want it. There have been some issues, however with the couple living above me. He works nights and she has OCD. She vacuums everyday sometimes twice a day. She washes clothes everyday, sometimes multiple times during the day. What in the hell could she possibly be washing? I believe she is running a laundromat above me. Anyway, after being used to a…

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