December 2010 Blog Posts (50)

Entering the New Year

I want to share a dream I had a couple of night ago..... It's a beautiful warm sunny day, and we were all in a big open space, like a big, lush, green, field and there’s a big gate, (something like a farm gate), and everyone is walking through this gate together, laughing, chatting, some even running. I am with my boys,…

Continue

Added by Catherine Brincau on December 30, 2010 at 10:06pm — No Comments

greivng and special occasions

On my Birthday, January 18, 2008 I lost my husband to A.L.S. A great husband, father, son and friend. And if that wasn't hard enough 3 days later on the day he was layed out at the funeral home, walking in to the funeral home my Mom fell to the floor and had a massive heart attack and died. I cannot express the horror that myself and my family felt that day and still feel. I have managed somhow to go on with my life and have been in a relationship for 2 years. The grief still comes and… Continue

Added by janyce on December 30, 2010 at 7:19am — 1 Comment

Understanding

I have read a number of postings and replys as I find time to come here and try to find some type of closure, some kind of understanding, or some part of reason for just me. I'm not trying to be selfish, just trying to find closure. A loss, is a loss, is a loss, and each of us react as each of us are unique. Still, I'm finding out that I'm not alone, BUT unique, takes me one step further towards a healing understanding. I am human, and I am a male, out numbered, yet equal in life's loss. I… Continue

Added by Leonard Shick on December 29, 2010 at 7:32pm — No Comments

Waiting for Pete

Today was really hard. We (my son and I) visited the cemetery. We cleaned Pete's plaque and laid fresh flowers. And the whole time, it was like I was waiting for him to just walk up to me. Like we'd arranged to meet there or something. I really couldn't comprehend that he wasn't going to turn up. Not there, not anywhere. A flood of emotion overtook me and I stood there crying as reality set in. This can't be right, we were… Continue

Added by Catherine Brincau on December 29, 2010 at 6:20am — 2 Comments

MERRY CHRISTMAS in HEAVEN 2010, A LITTLE LATE

I am so sorry, I started to send this the other day and the pc acted up and I lost it. So, here goes.

MERRY CHRISTMAS IN HEAVEN. I HAVE POSTED MESSAGES ALL OVER. FACEBOOK, LEGACY, AND HERE. I STAYED IN BED AS MUCH AS I COULD TODAY. I DIDN'T WANT TO CELEBRATE ANYTHING WITH ANYONE. DAD AND I WERE NOT ACTING THE BEST TOWARD EACH OTHER. WE DIDN'T GO ANYWHERE.

MIKE STOPPED OVER, WITH HIS MOTORCYCLE. IT WAS FREEZING OUT!!! his vehicle is in the shop and wasn't ready on…

Continue

Added by JOYCE MASHER, 4 Amy 5158791808 on December 27, 2010 at 4:22pm — No Comments

volunteering

Hi everyone, sorry I haven`t posted anything for a while. I been busy volunteering for The Hospice of Dayton where I visit patients on hospice. I been volunteering for little over 1 year since my wife Carol passed away. Right now I have 10 patients spread throughout Dayton area where I drive about 800 miles per month. I`m back now to catch up on what`s going on.

Added by Gregory C Williams on December 27, 2010 at 3:30pm — No Comments

Wow, babe... What a great weekend!! I had the best time spending Christmas with your moms and family, and even got to meet Kevin and his wife. They were so great, wish you could have been there, but …

Wow, babe... What a great weekend!! I had the best time spending Christmas with your moms and family, and even got to meet Kevin and his wife. They were so great, wish you could have been there, but I understand you were tied up with higher matters. I wanted to say thank you, for my Christmas wish. When I walked out to my car and it immediatly started snowing on me... WOW, I guess you did love me unconditionally. It meant sooo much to me, and even though you couldn't be with us, I swear I could… Continue

Added by Ladona Melton on December 27, 2010 at 3:05pm — 1 Comment

Well another Christmas gone without you here! This is the 3rd Christmas without your smiling face! I keep asking myself what I did to deserve you dying before me. The pain is so intense sometimes. …

Well another Christmas gone without you here! This is the 3rd Christmas without your smiling face! I keep asking myself what I did to deserve you dying before me. The pain is so intense sometimes. I love and miss you so much!!! Continue

Added by Jason's mother Becky on December 27, 2010 at 2:07pm — 1 Comment

I feel that I have found a sounding board. I'm struggling every minute of every day over the loss of the man I gave my heart and soul to. I am so lucky to have had the time we did have together. I fe…

I feel that I have found a sounding board. I'm struggling every minute of every day over the loss of the man I gave my heart and soul to. I am so lucky to have had the time we did have together. I feel cheated and completely heart broke over Joe's sudden death. I torture myself over the if only's and why has this happened. I am still in a state of disbelief that this man who was my best friend, my life partner could possibly be gone. Joe died while…

Continue

Added by Corrine Cayton on December 27, 2010 at 9:00am — 1 Comment

Merry Christmas...here's your black eye,....

I hate anyone losing someone they love. I can't read a newspaper article about a death without crying, can't watch a show with loss in it or I bust into tears, I get annoyed when people post on Facebook all those "cutsie" poems on losing someone. Yes, that's anger in my tone, and I grieve for everyone now.

Where does this horror ever end?

For Christmas I only asked for a pair of "moccason?" house shoes, but instead got my eye blacked, a busted lip, and several knots on my head. … Continue

Added by LAURA EMBRY on December 27, 2010 at 2:44am — 2 Comments

Happy 12th Anniversary My Love Doug....Dec. 26,2010

My Dearest Doug, Happy 12th Anniversary! You may have left my side, but not my heart or soul my love. Each year I made a tradition to write you a poem that encompasses that years journey down life's lane together. September 29, 2010 cut that journey here on earth to 11 years 9 months and three days/daze. OH GOD...how I miss you and cry so much.You and I complimented each other on the journey in so many ways, now I feel nothing but EMPTINESS,LONELINESS and SADNESS. My soul is tired. We had…

Continue

Added by Ellen Brant on December 26, 2010 at 6:07pm — No Comments

Christmas without the happy dance of Kenny.......

This is my 3rd. Christmas without my son. The pain never goes away it becomes different. This year I did my usual December things @ the grave: solar powered wreath, A lady I work with was kind enough to set up Kenny's grave candles ( I HAD TO WORK:( )

Attended the gravesites annual Candle lighting ..very late and I did my regular visits. I also layed a new hotwheels tractor @ his stone. Kenny loved the dirt he even grew up and became certified in Heavy Equipment operating. I guess I…

Continue

Added by Karen ~ Kenny's Mom on December 26, 2010 at 4:07pm — No Comments

.

Added by Rowett on December 26, 2010 at 1:58am — No Comments

I'll never understand it

Though my faith has given me strength since Travis has passed, it has also given rise to many questions. Questions that will never be answered, not on this earth, anyway. Why did they take our children so young? Travis had the world to look forward to. All of our children did. And I wonder why God would let me live, and take my son. I think its a question we all struggle with. It just hurts so much some times. I feel guilty just being alive. God help us all.

Added by Debra on December 25, 2010 at 4:02pm — No Comments

To Those who Hurt

This is what I say and it may be helpful or you may not like it, but I…

Continue

Added by Debra on December 25, 2010 at 8:18am — 2 Comments

To Travis

I remember your eyes

So light and gray

Filled with light

On Christmas Day.

The look of awe

You gave our tree

We shared that

Special Christmas glee

I feel your spirit

Close to me

I feel your smile

Wash over me

I wish for you

This Christmas tide

The love of God

And with him abide.

Added by Debra on December 24, 2010 at 8:30pm — No Comments

lIVE THE LIFE THEY WOULD WANT YOU TO LIVE

Hello all marry Christmas and i know how hard it is to say that for many of us . I have lived through the past 2 Christmaswithout Adam I still remember the first few days and weeks after Adam died .I wanted to die I wanted to be with him and the pain hurt so much . I know how you all feel ive been there i,m still here and the pain is still here I just have leaned to live with it and make it my own I want you all to say that I will make this pain my own and take as much time as you ned to…

Continue

Added by Rowett on December 23, 2010 at 11:26pm — No Comments

Who are your Heroes?

Who are your Heroes? Mine are my three sons. Two for fighting with all their might to survive cancer and dying with dignity when a cure was not to be found. I…

Continue

Added by Lynnette Bryant on December 23, 2010 at 9:59pm — No Comments

"An Angel" placed this wreath on his cross......... at the accident site I had placed the cross a month after the accident

Added by Colleen Pasay on December 23, 2010 at 12:49pm — 1 Comment

FIRST CHRISTMAS WITHOUT MY SON

Ths will be the first christmas since my son past. Lawrence passed on October 9, 2010 he was thirteen. My husband doesnt understand why I dont want to do christmas shoppin. He says we have four other younger kids and we need to do it for them but it is so hard. I think abou Lawrence all the time as christms grows closer the more things remind me of him. I had a special ornament made for him to go on the tree.

Added by Carolyn kauffman on December 23, 2010 at 11:02am — No Comments