I'm really trying not to dwell on the up coming Mother's day. My mother died when I was younger and my only child died 09/07/08. My daughter, Amanda, is who made Mother's day good for me. Now, with both my mom and my daughter gone, I just don't want that day to come. This will be my first ma's day without both of my girls. I know I can't stop time from marching on and I want to stay as positive as possible. However, I'm really sad about this. I know I should go to a rest home or something and… Continue

I'm really trying not to dwell on the up coming Mother's day. My mother died when I was younger and my only child died 09/07/08. My daughter, Amanda, is who made Mother's day good for me. Now, with both my mom and my daughter gone, I just don't want that day to come. This will be my first ma's day without both of my girls. I know I can't stop time from marching on and I want to stay as positive as possible. However, I'm really sad about this. I know I should go to a rest home or something and… Continue

I'm really trying not to dwell on the up coming Mother's day. My mother died when I was younger and my only child died 09/07/08. My daughter, Amanda, is who made Mother's day good for me. Now, with both my mom and my daughter gone, I just don't want that day to come. This will be my first ma's day without both of my girls. I know I can't stop time from marching on and I want to stay as positive as possible. However, I'm really sad about this. I know I should go to a rest home or something and… Continue

I'm really trying not to dwell on the up coming Mother's day. My mother died when I was younger and my only child died 09/07/08. My daughter, Amanda, is who made Mother's day good for me. Now, with both my mom and my daughter gone, I just don't want that day to come. This will be my first ma's day without both of my girls. I know I can't stop time from marching on and I want to stay as positive as possible. However, I'm really sad about this. I know I should go to a rest home or something and… Continue

I'm really trying not to dwell on the up coming Mother's day. My mother died when I was younger and my only child died 09/07/08. My daughter, Amanda, is who made Mother's day good for me. Now, with both my mom and my daughter gone, I just don't want that day to come. This will be my first ma's day without both of my girls. I know I can't stop time from marching on and I want to stay as positive as possible. However, I'm really sad about this. I know I should go to a rest home or something and… Continue

I'm really trying not to dwell on the up coming Mother's day. My mother died when I was younger and my only child died 09/07/08. My daughter, Amanda, is who made Mother's day good for me. Now, with both my mom and my daughter gone, I just don't want that day to come. This will be my first ma's day without both of my girls. I know I can't stop time from marching on and I want to stay as positive as possible. However, I'm really sad about this. I know I should go to a rest home or something and… Continue

I'm really trying not to dwell on the up coming Mother's day. My mother died when I was younger and my only child died 09/07/08. My daughter, Amanda, is who made Mother's day good for me. Now, with both my mom and my daughter gone, I just don't want that day to come. This will be my first ma's day without both of my girls. I know I can't stop time from marching on and I want to stay as positive as possible. However, I'm really sad about this. I know I should go to a rest home or something and… Continue

I'm really trying not to dwell on the up coming Mother's day. My mother died when I was younger and my only child died 09/07/08. My daughter, Amanda, is who made Mother's day good for me. Now, with both my mom and my daughter gone, I just don't want that day to come. This will be my first ma's day without both of my girls. I know I can't stop time from marching on and I want to stay as positive as possible. However, I'm really sad about this. I know I should go to a rest home or something and… Continue

I'm really trying not to dwell on the up coming Mother's day. My mother died when I was younger and my only child died 09/07/08. My daughter, Amanda, is who made Mother's day good for me. Now, with both my mom and my daughter gone, I just don't want that day to come. This will be my first ma's day without both of my girls. I know I can't stop time from marching on and I want to stay as positive as possible. However, I'm really sad about this. I know I should go to a rest home or something and… Continue

I'm really trying not to dwell on the up coming Mother's day. My mother died when I was younger and my only child died 09/07/08. My daughter, Amanda, is who made Mother's day good for me. Now, with both my mom and my daughter gone, I just don't want that day to come. This will be my first ma's day without both of my girls. I know I can't stop time from marching on and I want to stay as positive as possible. However, I'm really sad about this. I know I should go to a rest home or something and… Continue

I'm really trying not to dwell on the up coming Mother's day. My mother died when I was younger and my only child died 09/07/08. My daughter, Amanda, is who made Mother's day good for me. Now, with both my mom and my daughter gone, I just don't want that day to come. This will be my first ma's day without both of my girls. I know I can't stop time from marching on and I want to stay as positive as possible. However, I'm really sad about this. I know I should go to a rest home or something and… Continue

I'm really trying not to dwell on the up coming Mother's day. My mother died when I was younger and my only child died 09/07/08. My daughter, Amanda, is who made Mother's day good for me. Now, with both my mom and my daughter gone, I just don't want that day to come. This will be my first ma's day without both of my girls. I know I can't stop time from marching on and I want to stay as positive as possible. However, I'm really sad about this. I know I should go to a rest home or something and… Continue

I'm really trying not to dwell on the up coming Mother's day. My mother died when I was younger and my only child died 09/07/08. My daughter, Amanda, is who made Mother's day good for me. Now, with both my mom and my daughter gone, I just don't want that day to come. This will be my first ma's day without both of my girls. I know I can't stop time from marching on and I want to stay as positive as possible. However, I'm really sad about this. I know I should go to a rest home or something and… Continue

I'm really trying not to dwell on the up coming Mother's day. My mother died when I was younger and my only child died 09/07/08. My daughter, Amanda, is who made Mother's day good for me. Now, with both my mom and my daughter gone, I just don't want that day to come. This will be my first ma's day without both of my girls. I know I can't stop time from marching on and I want to stay as positive as possible. However, I'm really sad about this. I know I should go to a rest home or something and… Continue

I'm really trying not to dwell on the up coming Mother's day. My mother died when I was younger and my only child died 09/07/08. My daughter, Amanda, is who made Mother's day good for me. Now, with both my mom and my daughter gone, I just don't want that day to come. This will be my first ma's day without both of my girls. I know I can't stop time from marching on and I want to stay as positive as possible. However, I'm really sad about this. I know I should go to a rest home or something and… Continue

May is just around the corner. I lost my only child, my beautiful daughter Amanda, last Sept. In May comes my first Mother's day without her (am I still a mom?), her 24th birthday, my 55th birthday and her father (my ex for many many years) 56th birthday. I am just waiting. It's like, if I can just make it through May, I will be okay. I'm hooked up withThe Compassionate Friends and private counseling but I'm so mad my only child, my best friend for the last 23 years, my pride and joy, the apple… Continue