I am not sure I will ever enjoy the holidays again. My husband passed away on Thanksgiving morning at our home. It was his favorite day of the year. He had been sick but did not want to spend the day in the hospital. He had heart problems and diabetes and did not like doing what he should do each day.We were married 38 years and best friends during all those years. People always asked what our secret was and he said "holding hands". He always reached for my hand when we were out somewhere. I…