Another year has started. It has been two years since I lost my husband of 42 years. I can't say it has gotten any better, I know  he's not suffering anymore , he died peacefully  I am grateful for that.  I get mad at him sometimes then I cry but I know he's still with me I can feel him looking over my shoulder and watching over me. As one of his doctors told me after he passed; he'll always be with me in my heart. This is what gets me through each day. 

this was my husban's favorite time of year. He loved the outdoors going hunting, and I would go with him just to be out with him. It's such a pretty time of year, and I hope he can still see it from heaven. It's coming up on 10 months since he left to go to heaven. I find this fall and winter will be hard the first one with out him. I hope he knows how much I miss him and love him and wish he were still here. I wish cancer would get cancer and die, so nobody else has to go through this.

today is the start of another long weeken, I am not looking forward to the fall or winter. Fall was his time of year, hunting season and I use to go with him just to be with him. He was my best friend and partner we were inseparble. This is what makes it so hard, we both use to say,I don't know what life would be without you, I'll tell you it is a very lonely life without him. Continue

today is the start of another long weeken, I am not looking forward to the fall or winter. Fall was his time of year, hunting season and I use to go with him just to be with him. He was my best friend and partner we were inseparble. This is what makes it so hard, we both use to say,I don't know what life would be without you, I'll tell you it is a very lonely life without him. Continue

First day completely alone since my husband past on December 28,2009. Grandchildren back in school, son and daughterinlaw back at work.