well its been a year tomorrow sense i lost my husband and its been a struggle i will never forget.. i go from blaming myself to blaming my husband for leaveing  me here to deal with all this pain.. my kids judge me they dont listen they think i should be ok an just forget it.. you cant be with someone 30 yrs and just  forget it all .. his family wont talk to me they act like its my fault ..he died of heart failure they would never see him in the hospital it was me and my daughter there by… Continue

daniel was my husband , my best friend and these last nine months havebeen a nightmare ive cryed so much not thinking anyone understands i somtimes think im losing my mind then pai is so hard at times but i keep telling myself i have to put my life together again so if you cry your not alone this is very painful but we must go on be strong lean on each other together we can make it the hoildays are hard his birthday is on the 27 of nov he would be 50 i miss him so much

its like i have to start over living again he was my guide for thirty years he taught me to live and kept my kids from walking all over me hes gone and its like i have no cotrol i cry without warning and hate myself and even get mad at him what am i to do how do i find a way around this does anyone understand me