I have had a variety of feeling in the last few days. I believe I have had every emotion one could have all in one day.  I happen to be driving down the road when I passed my husbands old pick up that he had when we first met. I haven't seen that truck in months, when my husband and I would see it before he passed away we used to laugh and say there it goes. It will probably out live all of us. Little did we know we were right. The flood of tears were so intense I had to pull over. The…

This weekend has been more difficult than I expected. It has been 3 months since my husband passed away today! Yesterday was one of my grand daughters birthday. She turned 5. It was the first birthday party without my husband. The surprised tears in the middle of the party caught me so off guard so once they started I couldn't stop them. I stepped out side to gather my thoughts and some complete stranger walked by and made the comment. Wow, why you so sad, nothing that is going on in your…

When I look back on my husband's life he was the crew chief of our family. He was our ROCK! He may have look rough and tough on the outside but he had the biggest heart anyone could ask for.  He was my everything: husband, best friend.  He ran his life like a race. He always knew where he was starting from and planned his race to the end. Of course he had to make his pit stops for his Ice tea and a smoke break but then he would get back in there and be there for his family and friends no…