I feel you beside me in all my endeavors ,I see you in the sky ,your always putting pressure on my heart tugging on my soul images of you filling my head .

Not a day  has passed where i don't fight the tears that threaten to burst out at every thought .

They say everyone grieves in their own way i hold down the flood of tears i feel the lump in my throat , the more i hold it in the more it hurts .

I was never mad at you I never could be .I wish i would of understood you…