While I miss my son more than words will ever describe and I want to scream and smash things and cry until I die too. Everyone here knows the pain of missing them, knows the endless tears that come with it.

 I'm so sorry we all have to be here, I'm sorry we share this common bond. It's not something any of us ever planned, made an entry on a bucket list, we're thrown into it in spite of gender, race, religion, etc.

 In the past 3 3/4 years I've come to accept that I didn't do…