Dear Liz,



Today has not been the best of days.  :(

I was up late last night...and then early this morning.  So then I was so tired when it was time to get ready to take the kids to school...I could barely get off the couch. 

I really needed to get ready for Christmas today...but I just wasn't up to it.

I sort of felt lost today.  I was online a lot.  I read some on my Kindle.  Unfortunately I didn't do much that was…

Dear Liz,

Today it's been exactly 10 months since you died.  :(

On November 17th...we went to the ASPCA and then The Humane Society looking for a dog.  Katelyn found one at The Humane Society...a red nose chihuahua named "Buster".  Not quite what I expected...but a very sweet dog nonetheless.  Thank you for leading us to him.  He adds a little too much work to my day...but I still like having a dog that you helped us find. ♥

November 17th was also…

NOTE: Liz died just a few months after she turned 38. Her birthday is December 5th. Reading this story is one of the things I've figured out to do is to on my sister's first birthday in heaven.

FYI: When I mention her child...it's the one she miscarried. And since I also had one miscarriage...and our other sister Pam has had two miscarriages...that makes the three nieces/nephews that I mention in the story.

Without further ado...LOL *smile*...here is the…

Dear Liz,

The entire morning was taken up by cooking my very first Thanksgiving dinner ever!  There was really no time to mourn or grieve.

I saw the flowers I have for you...as well as the pictures...but I focused on making the dinner, and having a special Thanksgiving with my husband and my kids.

Afterward I took one of the Thanksgiving pictures I made and took it and my Kindle to my room.  I read some on my Kindle...I touched the picture...I…

NOTE:  Even though it is the 23rd...I am writing this about the 15th through the 21st

How has the past week been for you?  okay

What was the worst thing that happened?  I watched the movie "Rango"

What was the best thing that happened?   I ordered a charm with Liz's name on it from someone on Etsy with a little bit of my birthday money.  And my daughter gave me a locket on my birthday that I'm going to put a picture of Liz in…

It's not finished yet...but this story is about what I imagine Liz's experience might have been after she died. Even just the small part that I have written does bring me some comfort and peace. :)

She had done it...she had died. She looked around for Damian...but didn't see him. But instead of searching for him more...she went through the tunnel that she had heard about. And she was met on the other side first by her Grandma Shively. Even though she had never met her...she instantly…

Dear Liz,

It has now been exactly 9 months since I lost you.  :(

This past month has been very busy with the Book Fair...Dad's birthday...Pioneer Days...Halloween...driving my adopted baby sister's kids home from school...your online Memorial Service...your FB Page...Joshua's tutoring...Katelyn being in Chorus...Joshua and Katelyn being in a club after school...and Volunteering in the school library.

 

Not to mention being ignored by my husband for a week, and…

Dear Liz,

I guess the key to grieving for me is to plan ahead!! 

I not only figured out what I was going to do today...but I set up 2 things that I knew would comfort me today.  A phone call with a good online friend...and I also had a FB friend share the link for your page! 

You…

Dear Liz,



It's now been exactly 8 months since you died.  :(



Have you seen your Facebook Page?  I really hope that you like it!



I especially like the photos that I put together just for my Page!  A

friend of mine told me how to do it just this week.  :)



And then just this week I created a Twitter account to connect the

page to.



I've also been working on your online memorial service I'll be doing on

your anniversary…

Below is a list of things that I am struggling with regarding the loss of my beloved sister Liz:

1.  Guilt.  This is one of my biggies.  I feel guilty that I didn't know that she was hurting so badly...that I never chatted with her on Gmail after I found out her gmail address last November...that I only contacted her once after November...that I survived when I was suicidal and she didn't...and that I wasn't able to use my experience to help her...that I wasn't there when she…

Let me start with last Thanksgiving.  The day itself was a normal one for me.  But I guess after I left my sister told our parents that she was getting a divorce.



We came over on Saturday for dinner.  However...we weren't there very long before we all heard my sister arguing with my mother.  I had never heard my sister go off quite like that before.  I had absolutely no idea what to do!!  Oh how now I wish that I had tried to get her to talk to me!



Anyway...my mother…