This is hard to even tell our story but I think it will help to talk about it, so here goes. On may 30th 2014 we dropped my husband  off at work at 7 am , as we're walking out the door to meet him for lunch his mother pulled up to let me know he had passed. At about 10:15. My husband and I have been together for 18 years. We have 4 young children as well as his older three with his ex. I see them all as my children, they have a loving mother,  they have been such a huge part of my life for…