I've never felt this way before. I keep waiting to feel better, and on some days I do, but then, this overwhelming, suffocating grief returns to me. I have a lot of emotions that I don't know what to do with and a lot of thoughts that are scary to me. I've had people pass away before that I was close to and loved dearly, but never this close. This was my mother. This is the person who knew me the best, the one person I could tell my secrets to, and she would understand and love me the same. Now… Continue