So I'm new to this whole thing.. But here's the story. I'm 17 years old and my big brother (24) committed suicide on September 30th. He was a really bad drinker, and he knew he needed help. He was my best friend. I went through a stage of about a year an a half getting bullied, and he was the only one that was there for me and helped me through it. I spent every waking moment with him, he would even sleep on my floor in my room some nights. We went riding, fishing, everytime I was hungry…