I really feel as though something has broken in my brain. I've told my head Dr. about this and she said its PTSS and severe trauma from loosing so many family members. I've lost 2 husbands from illness, my mom from suiside and my brother for a needle stuck in his arm with drugs. With the passing of this last husband I've never seen anything more horrible ever in my life. He weighed 68 lbs when he passed. It was like a horror movie and I  can't get that vision out of my my head at night when…