Soon be 6 months.  This site gives me a place to unload with people I don't know.  It has been healing for me. 

In just 3 weeks, 2 neighbors have died.  Lat night it was a teen in an auto accident.  I will be here for his mom.  I will be saying those soothing comments I have read on this site.  I will help as I feel lead to do, but won't attend the funeral.  I think it will set me back.  Pray for my strength as I comfort someone who has gone through a horrible loss.

My husband enjoyed a good laugh. I was thinking how much I missed his happy, blue eyes. Sometimes when I talk to him at night, I hold a teddy bear he had as a young truck driver, but Jingles has no eyes. Lo and behold, on an errand, I found a bag of google eyes!!!! I colored them blue, and glued them on the teddy bear. Big eyes, big bright movable eyes. I can not help but to laugh out loud when I come into the bed room. The bear represents him. Just like him, it made me laugh. Have a good…

Here I am again reflecting. Thank God I have a full life, but yet, I don't feel complete. A huge part of me left 5 months ago. Although I continue some of the things we did, those moments are bittersweet. I have him in my thoughts, but long for his physical presence.

As I let go of some of the pain, I try to make room for others who were not as blessed as I to have had a partner that enjoyed going out and doing simple, and not expensive things. This week, I heard a woman say she had…

Ain't no mountain I can't climb. The evenings and early mornings I enjoy the birds, especially the ones who like to do a nightly choral for me at my reflection, prayer time. Caught myself singing a lot yesterday. My soul doth magnify the Lord.

Frankie, you should be used to making coffee in the morning.  It is a minor thing and he did it so well.  He would laugh today and remind you to not forget to put the grounds in.  He knew you had brain fog in the mornings.  He is hugging you from heaven with a twinkle in his eyes.

Dear Frankie, Remember to put on your muscle rub cream  before you cry in the morning.  Wash your hands before you drop those tears and touch your eyes.  Well, it did refocus your thoughts.  

My husband's health notably got worse after a stroke about a year ago.  Although his life was spared for a while, it was obvious to both of us - although not discussed much - that he probably would not out-live me.  I had dealt with being a widow before.  He had been a widow and one day we came up with the idea of Huggy.  Near Valentine's day he bought me a huge stuffed Monkey and we named it Huggy.  Frequently he or I would hug the monkey.  The monkey was to…

     Second time around, just as painful, but maybe more hopefull.  I have past the third month and have not quite shelved my grief, tears come frequently and I still find it hard to talk much about him.  Went to a local festival yesterday and missed holding his hand.

     I have kept busy.  Over the  spring break I actually read and enjoyed a book, The Dutch Wife.   …