I'm trying to start from the beginning

With my very first memory of you

I remember sitting on a bench

I had grazed my knee

I remember you wiping the blood away

I remember eating dried pineapples with you

From a little fridge in a caravan

To me they were like lollies

I remember yanking your beard like it was a toy all the time

I remember when you shaved it off and we giggled at you because you looked so different

I…

On Wed 19th December 2012 my brother phoned me about 8.30pm. We had recently had a falling out, over the way my brother had treated my dad, but had sorted things out over text so I thought he was calling to say sorry.

Instead he told me my dad was gone. He killed himself at the cemetery where his own dad, the grandfather I never met, was buried.

I love my dad so much. We were very close. He had depression over the years but I honestly never ever…

On Wed 19th December 2012 my brother phoned me about 8.30pm. We had recently had a falling out, over the way my brother had treated my dad, but had sorted things out over text so I thought he was calling to say sorry.

Instead he told me my dad was gone. He killed himself at the cemetery where his own dad, the grandfather I never met, was buried.

I love my dad so much. We were very close. He had depression over the years but I honestly never ever…