I DONT KNOW HOW TO GO ON TOGET PASSED THE PAIN AND SORROW AND GO ON TO LIVE IS JUST IMPOSSIBLE TO ME I CAN NOT SEE EVER GETTING OVER THE LOSS OF MY SON ED HE WAS WAY TO YOUNG AND MY ROCK HE IS GONE AND THE EMPTYNESS IS SO DEEP THE TEARS CANNOT STOP THE STABBING OF MY HEART IS SO REAL TO SIT AND WAKE MY SON WAS SO SURREAL TO SEE HIM IN THE CASKET WAS SO UNREAL AND NOW I WILL NEVER HEAR HIS VOICE AGAIN SEE HIS SMILE AGAIN IN THIS LIFE TIME AND i AM SO NUMB

Tororrow is my loved ones Birthday He has been gone since 11/18/08 and I still feel numb and feel so sad that he will not be here to celebrate his birthday The pain is so deep and part of me is gone and the empty feel at night just too much