I'm really trying not to dwell on the up coming Mother's day. My mother died when I was younger and my only child died 09/07/08. My daughter, Amanda, is who made Mother's day good for me. Now, with both my mom and my daughter gone, I just don't want that day to come. This will be my first ma's day without both of my girls. I know I can't stop time from marching on and I want to stay as positive as possible. However, I'm really sad about this. I know I should go to a rest home or something and do something for a mom who is alone. I know all these things, yet my heart wants to scream. I'm starting to see commercials on the news "send in letter why you have the best mom". Oh well. I guess I will get through this one moment at a time. I just hope I can be okay and not give up on life.