I have not been able, no i have been able just not willing to just break down & weep my heart away. I catch myself driving & suddenly tears fill my eyes i stuggle to hold the whine muffled voice from sounding out, shake my head wipe the tears & try to tell myself to think of something happy, she always said dont be a sad sack think of happy things smile, smile at someone you like, now.. smile at someone you dont like, are you smiling yet she`d say? are you?
I smiled & told her yes.. she had won.. I slept well after having a conversation with her..