I lost my very best friend on Dec 2, 2009 at 9:30 am of esophigial cancer. He was my ex husband. We were married for 22 years and had 3 children together. After all the years together I asked for a divorce. I sure wasn' for a lack of Love. We sort of grew bored with each other. After I left he had written me an e-mail telling me that he is glad that one of us had to courage to do what had to be done. It has been 14 years since the divorce but through the years we still were best friends. I would have him and his family over for outings, cook-outs, birthdays, holidays any event.. I would keep him up to date with the kids and goings on. We would talk on the phone. We still loved each other but as best friends not as a spouse. I did remarry very shortly after the divorce and when we would be at the same event somewhere else he would introduce himself to others as my husband-in-law. I am so lost knowing I cant pick up the phone to talk tohim..