I have been reading blogs from all of you out there, and this is the first time i have been able to write. In 2008 I lost my mom whom I took care of for thirteen years, two months later we lost my niece who was only 19. then two months after that we lost my older sister who was omly 42. It has been so hard to deal with there deats, I just pushed it all away, and tried to act like i was ok. I did all the volunteering i could do because helping others helps mr to not deal.reading blogs from people that are going through the same thing helps thank you.this was along time coming i needed to talk to someonee, but i dont want to look weak. here i can just write, and noone can see my tears, and how truely, upset i really am.