It has been going on6 months since I lost my mom It has torn me up in so many ways and I need to be strong for my little girl it is sooooo hard I cannot even explain how hard it really is my mom was an everyday part of my life I remember I used to sit and cry before she even died worrying about the days that I wouldnt have her anymore it was so scary. Now everymorning I wake up and the first thing I say to myself is ( another day without mom) and the tears come still after 5 months! My mom would call everymorning between 9 and 9:30 and would ask what I was doing for the day and would never miss a night without calling and saying goodnight and probably about 4 or more times in between, I remember we used to watch the Yankees on tv over the phone we were both big fans of them I even took her to few games she wanted to see them win the world series so bad and she died in July 2009 and the Yankees won the world series that year I say they did it for you mom!!!! .Now my phone never rings with my moms beautiful voice on the other end, I miss you mom so much my life has changed completely and I hate it without you in it.