I had a wonderful mom I lost her July 2009 I never imagined life without her, now I am living it, I think about my mom hour after hour now for almost 6 months, I dont know how my broken heart is still beating, I never experienced this kind of pain in my entire life and I am 48 years old death is something I will never understand. sure I go to church and I am catholic and I thought I always new or should I say believed what happened after you die but when it hits home like this I have to wonder....is my mom ok? mom and I were the closest out of all her 6 girls I am a single mom trying to stay strong for my 11 year old little girl who was my moms princess!!! theres not a day that goes by that she is on my mind constantly!!! My phone would ring everymorning faithfully at 9:15-9:30 and it would be her asking what are you doing today? (everyday! ) and she would call everynight without missing one night to say good night to me and my daughter. we were together on a daily basis. oh how I miss you mom!!!
I often ask her .....mom if there really is a heaven and god could you please ask him to let you whisper to me that you are ok and its ok for me to go on. but it never happens. and my phone never rings anymore at 9:15.