It's amazing that I feel I have lost a huge part of me - Not just my father - but someone that truly knows me - and the feeling of I knew him - my father was a big part of my life - He died December of 2008 As far as I can remember - I was always told "you look just like your dad" - I was very proud of that - and still am - I am a female - but my dads ways - and the gestures are all the same -I shock myself at some of the things - that I do - that he use to do - My dad was an alcoholic - as far as I can remember as a lil gurl - he dranked "Calvert" - I was always with my dad - I always felt as though I was the one to protect him - Then in his 40's he quit drinking - he became productive, he became responsible - When he quit - I was amazed - He remarried and another daughter and moved on - he was always available though - and I made sure I was available also - What happened in my fathers life - It seems as though we are identical in everything - See I am a recovering addict - and I too in my 40's have stop using - I bring this all up - because today I am able to look at the good and the greatness my father has enriched my life - by watching so closly at his life - Today I miss him - Today I am grateful - He loved the ATL Braves, he loved his kids - even at a distance - Today I honor him - and as quite as it keep - my soul truly is sad -