I DONT KNOW HOW TO GO ON TOGET PASSED THE PAIN AND SORROW AND GO ON TO LIVE IS JUST IMPOSSIBLE TO ME I CAN NOT SEE EVER GETTING OVER THE LOSS OF MY SON ED HE WAS WAY TO YOUNG AND MY ROCK HE IS GONE AND THE EMPTYNESS IS SO DEEP THE TEARS CANNOT STOP THE STABBING OF MY HEART IS SO REAL TO SIT AND WAKE MY SON WAS SO SURREAL TO SEE HIM IN THE CASKET WAS SO UNREAL AND NOW I WILL NEVER HEAR HIS VOICE AGAIN SEE HIS SMILE AGAIN IN THIS LIFE TIME AND i AM SO NUMB