Things are hitting me when I least expect it. Tonight I was watching the Olympic Opening Ceremonies, and one of the songs they played was Leonard Cohen's "Hallelujah". That song is in the soundtrack for "Watchmen" which was a graphic novel that Dan really liked and he liked the movie, as well. So when they started playing the song I thought I was going to lose it.
Then later in the evening I was watching something else (since I spent the day in bed with the laptop and the television) and a commercial came on for a computer game that Dan used to play all the time. I think it was BioShock, I'm not sure. Dan had a lot of computer games that he played and he was really good at them - he had patience with them that I didn't have - and I would watch him play Fallout 3 or BioShock (or whatever the name of it was)... and I felt like I'd been punched in the gut seeing the commercial, realizing that there'd never be another evening where I'd be sitting at my desk and he'd be at his, and I'd be able to look over and watch him playing one of his computer games.
God, this sucks. I'm going to take a sleeping pill and go to sleep. I'm not going to dance class tomorrow, and I'm blowing off my test-out, so I can take a whole pill and sleep all day tomorrow if I want to. Maybe that won't hurt as much.