I made it through the first Valentine's Day without my husband. The day before Valentine's Day was very hard. I cried most of the day. My husband, Noel always prepared a wonderful dinner for me and always had a dozen roses and a sweet card. I spent the day with my son, daughter-in-law, grandson and family members. It was pleasant and it kept me from constantly thinking about what I don't have. I have kept every valentine that my husband ever gave me. I re-read them yesterday. I was truly loved by him. Maybe it is therapudic to do things like this. I know that I do want another relationship someday, but I also know that I am not even close to being ready for anything like that now.
I am taking on-line classes to help me get employed again. I have been out of the work force for a long time. My husband and I always had some sort of business together. Maybe I will try to buy a small business to run. These are all things that I am mulling over in my mind. Sometimes I think that I can't go on, then I remember that I must go on.
I am also thinking about writing a book.
Thoughts and prayers to all who read this.