One of the worst things is that as time goes by and everyone goes back to their lives and it's just you. Everyone tells you you have so much to live for your kids, grandkids and your family and friends. I'm very happy for them but i feel like i'm lving in fishbowl watching everyone else live and be happy and all those precious moments they get to experiance. I Love them all very much but it's so hard watching and knowing i'm not sharing those precious moments with the man I Loved so much, we always enjoyed those moments in our kids life together and now i have no one to talk to anymore about any of those things. Sharing is the most precious thing you could share with another person and when they're gone it's gone. no more special moments together, just you and you alone to watch through that fishbowl as others share their special moments together. I love my kids and grandkids and friends and family and never want anyone to feel the depth of my lose and lonelyness. I really hate that life goes on when half of you is gone