I have very recently lost my husband of 32 years.
we were vacationing together and he drowned in a rip tide.
I swam to shore and tryed to call for help to several surfers nearby, one finally got to him with their surfboard but he could not hold on, apparently he had taken in too much water. when the rescue team got there they could not resusitate him. I feel terrible guilt as it was my suggestion to go for the swim(we are both swimmers) even though the water looked rough, there were others swimming, and we were only going in to our waists. Anyway, I don't know why sometimes people do dangerous things and nothing happens, and then something so innocent can take someone's life.
If we didn't go in the water that afternoon my husband would still be here. Was God a part of that plan? There are so many what if's. I imagine others feel the same way, if only they had taken a differnet route home or stayed later or left earlier that car accident or whatever would not have happened. IS it human free will ? randomness? Is God in control? I want to believe that He is. I want to believe that as aweful as it seems, it was God's plan for my husband to be with Him now at this time , in this way. At first people thought maybe he had suffered a heart attack in the water, but the autopsy did not show that, in a way it would have been easier to accept that. Otherwise it seems so senseless and preventable. I belive with all my heart that my husband is with God now, but I need to understand if it was his time.