I need some one to talk to and understand the pain I'm in. I lost my brother 9-5-09 he was just 33 years old. I'm the blame my brother isn't here to day he was on drug so I try one of the family thing and hold him if he didn't fo get help then we all was going to turn our backs. That was the wrong thing to say he did go get help in a inpa drug rehab and past away 48 hours later I just cant stop thanking i killed my best freind so if i didn't ask him to go get help he would still be here with his family. All i find myseft doing is crying all the time my heart is broken. How can you get past something like thing. He and I was so close with each other now I fell, I have no one to talk and understand the hurt. I try to be there for our mother and other sibleing and his kids. Being there for all the other family that leaves me by myseft. My brother would be helping me with things like this.
He played a big part in my life see he was the one who gave me away on my wedding day and 9-12-98 and 12 years later I had to gave him to God on 9-12-09 how can that still be a special day. PLEASE CAN SOME ONE HELP ME I'M LOST